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Love It Then Leave It Alone – February 2015


Ryan. Male. 23-30.

Debs. Female. 22-29.

Housemate. Male.


Didsbury, Manchester.


November 5th, 2004-2011

©Rob Hayes

February 2015


Didsbury, 2004.

A kitchen. An external door. A window, ajar.

Ryan’s doing a handstand. Debs is sat on the kitchen table, hands clasped under her nose, watching.

Ryan crashes out.

Debs starts clapping.

Debs. Wooo!

Ryan rubs his flank. He may have banged it.

Debs. That’s amazing.

Ryan. How long was that?

Debs. Dunno. Sorry, was I…

Ryan. Oh I thought you were…

Debs. No, sorry. Do it again. I’ll count.

Ryan. Nah don’t worry about it. Just showing off.

Debs. Where’d you learn that?

Ryan shrugs.

Ryan. Been doing it since I was like four.

Debs. Put the hours in then.

Ryan. I’ve just always had this, like, weird amazing sense of balance.

Debs. That’s fun.

Ryan. There’s videos of me as a little kid walking around the garden on my hands like some little gymnast or something. Fell on a barbecue once.

Debs. Oh my god.

Ryan. Yeah.

Debs. Must’ve fucking hurt.

Ryan. Oh, man, it absolutely wrecked. Stitches and everything.

Debs. Did you burn yourself?

Ryan. No it was really weird. I didn’t burn myself at all, but the edge of it, you know the rim. The like sharp metal rim…

Debs. Yeah.

Ryan. That cut right into my back. There.

He shows her.

Ryan. Right near the spine.

Debs. You’ve got a scar and everything.

Ryan. Yeah too right. ‘My mum was like, you’ve broken the barbecue!’ Alright, let me just get my back sewn up and I’ll buy you a new one…

Debs laughs.

Debs. If you’re gonna ruin a barbecue, do it in style. Were you scared?

Ryan. Kind of but like…not really, actually.

Debs. Probably too worried about the barbecue.

Ryan. Like I could still move my toes so that’s all I cared about.

Debs. Yeah that’s a good sign.

Ryan. Good rule of thumb. Can you move your toes? You’re probably fine.

Debs. You’ve lost an arm but you can move your toes.

Ryan. Yeah. You’ve got ebola but look on the bright side, your toes wiggle. Nah, I think I would’ve been more worried if it was like, my head. Or my face.

Debs. Ah your beautiful face.

Ryan. Nah but do you know what I mean though? Actually you’ve probably never had this but when you have an accident and your face is bleeding and your first thought is…what if I’ve done like permanent lasting damage to my face?

Debs. I’ve never had that.

Ryan. Because everyone sees it. Every day. You know when you see people with like a massive scar on their face. Or a birthmark. I mean I’m sure they live full happy lives and all that. And I bet it’s, y’know, character-building as fuck. Going out every day with a fucking– but sometimes I just want to say it out loud, you know what I mean? Like there was this guy at college and he had like a lump. Or a boil or something. Just a lump really. Right on the bridge of his nose. Right there.

Ryan demonstrates on himself.

Ryan. Like actually obscuring some of his eye. I mean it must’ve drove him crazy. And first time I met him I just wanted to say, Cleef mate, I can see you’ve got a big fucking boil covering your eye. I’m cool with that. I’m sure you’re cool with it by now. So let’s just all move on.

Debs. He’s probably taken enough shit about it by that point.

Ryan. Yeah but I reckon it’s the not taking shit for it. I think it’s the polite ignoring of it that’ll wear you down. You know, over the years. Must just grind you down. Most people can deal with taking shit.

Debs. Hmm. Cleef.

Ryan. Yeah his name was Cleef. So he had that to deal with as well.

Debs. Why didn’t he just get it removed?

Ryan. Fuck knows.

Debs. Maybe it was connected to his brain.

Ryan. Cleef. He was alright. Sorry I went off on one a bit there. Probably not really an appropriate…

Debs. I grew up with a girl who’s fingers were all fused together on one hand.

Ryan. That is messed up.

Debs does an imitation of it with one of her hands.

Debs. As a kid as well.

Ryan. Yeah. Shit. Even as an adult though. Like, you go for a job interview. What’s the first thing you do?

Debs. …Shake their hand.

They both shake their heads at the horror of it all.

Debs. Everyone was mean.

Ryan. I bet. Fuckin’ kids.

Debs. Awful some of it.

Ryan. Never from you though, right.

Debs. No well I was her mate. Never tried to stop it though. Just as bad in a way. She wrote with it though.

Ryan. Did she?

Debs. Yeah that was her writing hand.

Ryan. Ah so it’s not all bad then.

Ryan opens the fridge. Rummages around. He takes out what was a six-pack of beer. Four left, connected by plastic rings. He yanks off two then passes one to Debs.

Ryan. Your fella’s taking his time.

Debs. He always does this.

Ryan. What?

Debs. He just manages to take ages and then when he gets back there’s always a really normal reason for it.

Ryan. Do you reckon he’s got lost?

Debs. Doubt it.

Ryan. There’s an off license literally about ten minutes straight down.

Debs. Maybe then.

Debs shrugs. Ryan grins, shrugs back.

Ryan. I should’ve gone with him.

Debs. You couldn’t leave me here by myself.

Ryan. Yeah that’s bad hosting, that. You guys been together a while?

Debs. Two and a half years? On and off.

Ryan. A while then.

Debs. Yeah but…on and off.

Ryan. He seems cool.

Debs. Yeah. He can be a bit of a bellend.

Ryan. Declan did say that actually.

Beat. They both start laughing.

Ryan. Sorry that was so rude.

Debs. No. Honesty. I like it.

Ryan. No he says he’s a nice guy. But…I don’t know. I’ve said too much.

Debs. Declan’s very astute.

Ryan. Well Declan can be a bit of a bellend too. And it’s not like we’ve had long chats about it. He literally told me about you two for the first time today.

Debs. And then he sent us round to your house…

Ryan. And didn’t even turn up himself! Yeah actually he is a total bellend.

Debs. He’s just a disorganised idiot.

Ryan. Seriously I’m actually a bit worried about your boyfriend.

Debs. Urgh.

Ryan. What?

Debs. Boyfriend.

Ryan. Oh, sorry– what–

Debs. No it’s just…I dunno. Weird. We never…

Ryan. Sorry.

Debs. No– I mean I guess– Like we’re not that…he’s not very connected, if that makes sense. He’s not that involved in kind of…what I’m doing, and–

Ryan. That’s crazy. You seem awesome.

Debs. I’ve been a bit of a dick to him too. I tend to make terrible choices when it comes to…

Ryan. Make mistakes while you’re young innit.

Debs. I’ve done that.

Ryan. I’m sure you’ll… I mean you deserve like…a real like, good, nice, stable…I dunno. Ignore me I don’t know what I’m saying.

Debs slides off the table. She rubs her arms, chilly.

Ryan. You cold?

Debs. I’m alright

He shunts at the half-open window. The wooden frame is a bit swollen and won’t close neatly. He hammers it with the palm of his hand.

Ryan. Need to fix that.

Debs. Yeah you of all people.

Ryan. I know right? Especially this time of year.

Debs. Could get burgled.

Ryan. I meant cos of the cold, but now I’m terrified.

He offers her a jacket. Which she takes and drapes over herself.

Debs. Thanks. Ah, you never finished your story. About Voltron.

Ryan. Voltan.

Debs. Voltan.

Ryan. Voltron’s like a Manga robot.

Debs. Wow. Where did I pull that from?

Ryan. Ah, man– right. Yeah so we were stood there, and he came over to us. And he looked at the chair. And I was expecting him to, like, explain all the ways I’d fucked up.

Debs. Right.

Ryan. Like give feedback, basically. I’d watched him go round the room like, “ziss is wrong, you know, Zat should be over zherre. I wouldn’t let my dog sit on ziss churr.”

Debs. Ha!

Ryan. And he looks at my chair. PA kind of just hanging out behind him, like not even watching. And he looks at it, Voltan does, and he just says…yes.

Debs. Yes?

Ryan. Just literally…yes. Then he wanders off. And me and Maureen just looked at each other– and she was as confused as me. She’s been doing this twenty years and she was– and I said what does that mean? And she was like, I think he likes it.

Debs. Fuck.

Ryan. I was like…sick!

Debs. That’s amazing.

Ryan. Apparently he like wants to meet me properly and stuff. See my other work.

Debs. So cool. You’re good!

Ryan. Well– I mean it’s just hours. Just hours and hours in the studio.

Debs. That’s what it takes.

Ryan. Which is a shame cos now I don’t have a studio.

Debs. What?

Ryan. Well I’ve graduated.

Debs. What are you gonna do?

Ryan. Tim says I can use the spare room here. My housemate Tim. His uncle owns the house. I swear they’re like part of the Dutch mafia or something. Is there a Dutch mafia?

Debs. Is it big enough?

Ryan. It’ll do. It’s just so expensive finding space, you know. I’d have to get another job just to, like, pay for studio space. Probably better this way. They used to do grants for graduates. Bursaries for studio space and materials, but they cancelled it. Literally just this year.

Debs. Why?

Ryan. Fuck knows. Government got better things to spend their money on.

Debs. That’s rubbish.

Ryan. Just means that people with a bit of family cash can do it and everyone else…well…I’m just lucky I’ve got that spare room.

Debs. So like are your chairs really expensive then? Like, if you sold one.

Ryan. Well bearing in mind this was a restoration, the one that Voltan… And that’s like…serious money. Can be anyway.

Debs. Is that where you do up an old chair?

Ryan. Basically you take an old chair, which you have to buy yourself, or maybe get it given to you. Or get a commission to restore it–

Debs. Like an antique?

Ryan. Yeah like an antique chair. And then you basically just return it to its former glory. Like painstakingly restore every detail until it looks like it would’ve done in the 1800s or whenever.

Debs. Man. Sounds hard.

Ryan. Can be. Can be really hard. Cos you’ve gotta match the textures and everything exactly. Like the glue and the fabric. Stuff you wouldn’t even think of, like varnish. Or the type of nails they use. That’s the kind of thing experts notice. And then there’s the actual craft of it. Like carving and getting the right shape. You basically have to be as good as whoever famous craftsman made it in the first place. And who’s famous obviously because he was so good. It’s mental, thinking about it.

Debs. So is it a really nice chair?

Ryan. I mean, I like to think so. Voltan seems think so and he’s…pretty big deal. But I was working on it for seriously about a year– over a year, in fact. And normally it wouldn’t take that long.

Debs. Wow. A year?

Ryan. Yeah because it was my first proper exhibition piece. It was like a graduate thing. Sales are actually really rare. Straight-up sales. It’s more about collectors just getting a look at what these kids are up to. Who’s gonna be the new, y’know, amazing designer.

Debs. Clearly it’s gonna be you.

Ryan. Well…

She holds up her can. They cheers. Drink.

Debs. How did you even– I mean it’s such a weird thing to get into.

Ryan shrugs.

Ryan. Yeah…I don’t even remember, really. I mean, I did carpentry.

Debs. Yeah but even that’s…

Ryan. Mental, I know. I think I just liked the idea of it. Building something with your hands. People were doing, like, software development. Or marketing.

Debs. You wanted to build stuff.

Ryan. Right. Like, objects.

Debs. Like a man. Grrr.

Ryan. So– like a man, right. Plus I knew not many people would do it. And I liked the idea of being in a small class. And then I just moved into chairs and tables and stuff because…that was my favourite thing to make. I liked chairs and tables.

Debs. Makes sense. They’re useful.

Ryan. Exactly, right?

Debs. You sit on them. Everyone needs a chair.

Ryan. Totally. Everyone needs a chair. We’re never not gonna need chairs.

Debs. Benches.

Ryan. Yeah but they’re hardly gonna overtake chairs are they?

Debs. Time will tell.

Ryan. It’s one of those things where there’s a very small few people right at the top making all the big bucks.

Debs. And you’re gonna be one of them.

Ryan. I wanna be one of them, yeah.

Debs. And what about everyone else?

Ryan. Fuck ’em.

Debs. Cheers to that.

They both drink.

Ryan. So how about you? We’ve hardly even…

Debs. Me?

She huffs out her cheeks.

Ryan. You work at Man Met, right?

Debs. Yeah.

Ryan. You’re an ‘administrator’?

Debs. Well…

Ryan. This is what Declan told me. About three hours ago. Before he bailed on us.

Debs. I work on the main desk. Basically it’s a receptionist– I’m a receptionist. Except for a college.

Ryan. Cool. That’s cool. And what do you, like, wanna do?

Debs. What do I wanna do?

Ryan. Yeah like…what’s the dream? I’m assuming it’s not be a receptionist. I mean maybe it is, I don’t know…

Debs. No it’s definitely not. Manager’s a bit of a creep.

Ryan. Ah, really?

Debs. Yeah he’s just a bit…yeurgh. But he did give me a job. And I flirted a lot in the interview.

Ryan. Can’t complain too much.

Debs. I can if he’s a creep.

Ryan. You gonna quit?

Debs. Can’t afford to. I’m just glad to have a job to be honest.

Ryan. Tell me about it. Who isn’t?

Debs. I am gonna get a proper job. I will, when I’m ready for a career and stuff. Something creative. Working with people. Free tea and coffee.

Ryan. What did you study?

Debs. Nothing. I mean I didn’t–

Ryan. Right. Sorry, don’t know why I–

Debs. No it’s fine–

Ryan. Assumed…

Debs. I just didn’t– like I had a lot of other stuff going on.

Ryan. Cool.

Debs. Like…I have a daughter.

Ryan takes half a beat to react appropriately.

Ryan. Amazing.

Debs. Yeah.

Ryan. Amazing. How old is she?

Debs. She’s one. Nearly one. Couple of weeks.

Ryan. Oh what so– is he–

Ryan points to the back door. Debs nods.

Debs. Yep.

Ryan. I…had no idea. Wish I never called him a bellend now.

Debs. Yeah it’s not…I mean that’s kind of why he’s still around. In a way. That sounds harsh.

Ryan. No, I get that. Cos you two must’ve been pretty new.

Debs. Yeah it was weird. I mean I wouldn’t change it for anything.

Ryan. No of course. What’s she called?

Debs. Juniper.

Ryan. Juniper? Haha. What’s her real name?

Debs. Juniper.

Ryan. Awesome. That’s actually a really nice name.

Debs. I’m just a fan of gin.

Ryan. Right. Why’s that– what’s the…

Debs. Gin’s made from juniper berries.

Ryan. Sure. Good reason.

Debs. I thought so.

Ryan. You’ve got a daughter. Wow. That’s crazy.

Debs. Yeah. They’re quite common.

Ryan. No, yeah. Sorry. Stupid– I just mean…I dunno.

Debs. It does feel weird sometimes, just thinking… I am a mother. And obviously it wasn’t exactly, you know, planned, but…

Ryan. Right. Right. Not the kind of thing you plan with a bellend.

Debs. This is true.

Ryan. But you’re happy now though, yeah?

Debs. Oh, all the cliches. She’s my life. I love her more than anything. It’s knackering. Giving birth was the most painful thing you could possibly imagine…

Ryan. Did you shit yourself?

Debs. Yep. They don’t tell you about that. But it happens.

Ryan. Must be tough with you being at work then.

Debs. Yeah it is a bit.

Ryan. Do you have a nanny, or…?

Debs. She actually lives with my mum.

Ryan. Oh right. Yeah.

Debs. Just because her place is way more suited to having a little baby there than any place I’ve ever lived.

Ryan. Totally. Nightmare.

Debs. And my mum adores her. She’s so happy just to have her around.

Ryan. Well that’s ideal then.

Debs. Obviously I’m always round there. It’s literally twenty minutes on the bus. Twenty-five minutes.

Ryan. That’s cool. Mums are just generally good with babies, aren’t they?

Debs. Yeah mine’s like a baby-raising robot.

Ryan. They’re always like, ooh, it never leaves you!

Debs. Ha! That’s so true.

Ryan. I was changing your nappy not so long ago!

Debs. That’s what she says!

Ryan. That’ll be you soon.

Debs. I will always hate changing nappies.

Ryan. Oh totally.

Debs. It’s completely rank.

Ryan. I mean when would that ever not be a rank thing to do?

Debs. Yes, thank you.

Debs shudders. Pulls a face.

Ryan. Another beer?

Debs. I’m still working my way through this one actually.

Ryan. Cool.

Debs. Slow drinker.

Ryan. No it’s good. I just…straight down. Wish I knew how to drink slow.

Ryan cracks open his second beer.

Debs. So Declan did your course?

Ryan. No he did a different one. We just started hanging out because my class was full of dicks. So I just moped about by myself and eventually he kind of…

Debs. Took you under his wing.

Ryan. Kind of.

Debs. Why were they all dicks?

Ryan. It was just all a bit cliquey. Bit snobby. I didn’t really go in for that. I’m not good at that stuff.

Debs. Who’s laughing now, eh?

Ryan. Well, yeah. I mean it’s a long game. It’s a long game.

Debs smiles. Ryan kind of echoes her smile.

Ryan. Got much on tomorrow?

Debs. Seeing Juniper. Gonna take her out. Anything to get out of my place really.

Ryan. Is it not nice?

Debs. I’m an idiot. I just took the first room I was offered. I put in basically no research. My friend Shawni went to India for six months, and she said I could have the room.

Ryan. India? For six months?

Debs. She’s half-Indian. Got family out there and stuff. But she just called me up and offered it me, and I just took it. Didn’t even look at it.

Ryan. Serious?

Debs. Didn’t even go there.

Ryan. Oh my god. What’s it like? Is it bad?

Debs. Whole place is just a mess.

Ryan. Yeah?

Debs. I live with these two guys. And they were nice enough at first, but– well put it this way, I found one of them pissing in the sink the other day.

Ryan. The sink?

Debs. The kitchen sink. It was disgusting. I mean, it was…urgh!

She gags at the memory.

Debs. His little todger hanging over the rim.

Ryan. Jesus.

Debs. And this wasn’t an empty sink. And they always have loads of friends round and never clean up. One of them uses the same bowl for cereal every day, and never cleans it.

Ryan. Oh my word…

Debs. He has Weetabix every single day and he just lets the leftover Weetabix dry up against the side of the bowl, then just uses it again the next day. You can’t even see any, like…

Ryan. Ceramic.

Debs. No visible ceramic. Just dried brown shit.

Ryan. So grim.

Debs. And their dealer comes round every day. And they let him sleep round about three or four times a week.

Ryan. What, a drug dealer?

Debs. Yeah, he’s like a punk except he’s about 40. And he stinks, and he just sleeps on the couch till twelve or one in the afternoon. And he brings his clients round to pick up at our house.

Ryan. What?

Debs. Yeah. If he’s round at our place, which he is all the time, he’ll just tell his little druggie clients to come round and pick up there.

Ryan. So he’s literally, like, transacting drug deals in your house?

Debs. In our living room, yeah.

Ryan. That’s horrible.

Debs. Yep.

Ryan. What does bellend think of all that?

Debs. Couldn’t care less. He never comes round. It’s just a shame because you move into somewhere new, you kind of hope you’re gonna make some new friends, you know? A new, sort of, chapter.

Ryan. Can you not move back in with your mum?

Debs. My sister moved back in a few months ago. She got divorced, so she’s got all that to deal with. It’s a really small house. Plus I kind of moved out on principle. I think she thought I was just gonna live there forever.

Ryan. I see.

Debs. And I just had to…

Ryan. Prove her wrong.

Debs. Basically yeah. Caused a right palaver.

Ryan. Palaver. There’s a word you don’t hear anymore. Listen, if you ever need a place to crash. We’ve got a spare room.

Debs. I thought that’s gonna be your studio.

Ryan. Yeah but…I just mean if you really needed…I’d rather help someone out than use it to saw fuckin’ wood.

Debs nods. Smiles.

Ryan clears up some bits and bobs lying around on the table. Absent-mindedly stacking stray envelopes, etc. He looks up.

Ryan. So–

Debs kisses him.

They pull apart. Ryan wipes his mouth.

Ryan. Holy shit.

Debs. I think I’m pissed.

Ryan. We should probably go out soon. Fireworks and all that.

Debs kisses him again.

Ryan. Are you hungry?

Debs shakes her head.

Ryan. Do you want that other beer?

Debs shakes her head.

Ryan. Cuppa tea?

Debs shakes her head.

Ryan. You’re just right as rain.

Debs kisses him again. They continue kissing.

Fireworks sound off in the distance.

The same. 2005.

Debs is holding a big bag. Ryan is sat nursing a beer.

Ryan. No way. No.

Debs. I’m just telling you.

Ryan. Are you actually thinking about it?

Debs. I dunno. Maybe.

Ryan. After everything he’s done. After how hard he’s made it.

Debs. That’s what I mean though. Maybe this is his way of…you know.

Ryan. I can’t believe you’re even– I don’t know why you even still answer his calls.

Debs. Alright forget it.

Ryan. He’s unstable. How do you know he won’t run off with her?

Debs. He won’t.

Ryan. You don’t know that. I tell you what he will do though. He’ll fill her head with shit. About you. About your mum. He will. This is where it starts.

Debs. I just feel bad saying no.

Ryan. Debs, she’s two. She doesn’t need this right now. He doesn’t even pay anything.

Debs. He said he would though. If he had access to her.

Ryan. That’s not how it works. He should be paying regardless of whether he sees her.

Debs shrugs.

Ryan. Look it’s your decision, I get that. I just think you’d be insane. This is where it all starts.

Debs shrugs.

Ryan. We don’t need the money that badly. It’s not worth whatever few quid you’ll get off him.

Debs. Yeah but nursery fees as well and stuff.

Ryan. That’s a year away. We’ll find it.

Ryan stands up and kisses her.

Ryan. Do you wanna show me now?

Debs. Okay. You ready?

Debs shrugs off her previous energy and excitedly whips a colourful spice rack out of the bag. Ryan stares at it.

Debs. It’s a spice rack.

Ryan. Uh huh.

Debs holds it up to the wall

Debs. Yeah? What do you think?

Ryan. Yeah… I mean, neither of us have ever used a spice in our life, but…

Debs. I know, but I just saw it and it looked so nice. And it was four pounds. Four pounds!

Ryan. I have no idea how much one of these costs.

Debs. That’s great value.

Ryan. We should probably buy some spices.

Debs. Doesn’t have to be for spices. Could use it for little ornaments or sauce bottles or…finger puppets.

Ryan. Finally, a place for all my finger puppets! Here I am using a shoebox like a mug.

Debs. Okay so it’s useless. I splurged.

Ryan. You what, sorry?

Debs. I splurged.

Ryan. Please never use that word again.

Debs. What, splurge?

Ryan. Yeah. I hate it.

Debs. What’s wrong with splurge?

Ryan. For starters it’s a one syllable word but it takes ages to say. Like, you can’t say it fast.

Debs. Splurge. Yeah. Splurge. Can’t say it in a hurry.

Ryan. It takes longer than most two syllable words.

Debs. Does it though?

Ryan. Like, oven.

Debs. Splurge. Oven. Splurge. Oven. I mean we’re literally talking milliseconds.

Ryan shrugs.

Ryan. Time is money.

Debs laughs. Ryan drinks his beer.

Debs. Is it a rubbish present?

Ryan. No. I love it.

Debs. Do you?

Ryan. Yeah.

Debs. I’m so proud of you y’know.

Ryan. Thanks mate.

She sits on his knee.

Debs. I mean it. You’ve done it. You’ve actually done the thing you’ve been banging on about.

Ryan. Cheers?

Debs. No I mean like, everyone talks themselves up. But you’ve just got on with it.

Ryan. Thanks.

Debs. I didn’t want to get you anything expensive cos I didn’t know when they were gonna pay you.

Ryan. Well the advance should come in a couple of days. Few grand or something. And the rest I’ll get…probably in about a year.

Debs. A year?!

Ryan. Well I’ve got to build the furniture first. It’s a whole line, that’s a lot of work. Then he’s got to actually want them. And then he pays me the rest of the money.

Debs. That’s long.

She thinks about it a moment.

Debs. Will you put it up for me?

Debs hops off Ryan’s lap. He takes out a pencil and marks up where the drill holes will be.

Debs. Are you gonna do it now?

Ryan. First thing tomorrow. No, second thing.

Debs. What’s first thing?

Ryan waits for her to guess.

Debs. Breakfast!

Ryan. Got some of that sick bacon today. Big fat slices like that.

He measures with his fingers.

Ryan. Maple-cured. Bit of brown sauce…

Debs. You gonna make me breakfast?

Ryan. What’s in it for me?

Debs mimes overtly comical sex. Possibly with noises.

Ryan. Hmmm. Then you can expect…a feast. My princess.

Debs. Bacon sandwich is fine actually.

Ryan. Cheap date. I knew there was a reason I fell in love with you.

Debs smiles. Takes a large swig of wine.

Debs. Are you not in the studio tomorrow then?

Ryan. No I am. As if a day would go by, y’know.

Debs. Poor boy.

Ryan. It’s just– I just wanna nail it.

Debs. Course.

Ryan. Sometimes I just stand there and think, I can’t do it. I can’t physically do it. Like I literally cannot move. I can’t pick up a tool, and–

Debs. It’s just cos you want it to be perfect. But you got to accept that you’re gonna make mistakes at some point.

Ryan. No I’m not. Seriously, I know everyone’s gonna be waiting to see what I do for my first line. After all that faff over my graduate show. And Voltan’s just…

Debs. Is he breathing down your neck a bit?

Ryan. No, he’s the opposite. He’s totally chilled out about it all. That’s almost worse, you know? Like too much trust, almost.

Debs. You gotta remember it’s not a lot of money for him. In the grand scheme of things.

Ryan. Yeah but it is for me. Especially to waste it on building shit furniture. I want to prove him right. That’s it. I want to be one of the good investments. You know, he’s given me this commission and I really wanna, just prove…

Debs. You will do. You will be.

Ryan. It’s just so intense. It feels like it’s a real…moment.

Debs. It’s a chance to prove yourself.

Ryan. Like to have him support me, and bring all this attention in, and I’m literally either gonna go…

He mimes going up to the sky on a sharp gradient with his hand.

Ryan. Or I’m gonna go, like…

He mimes a sharper, quicker downward gradient.

Ryan. And I just– He’s making such a statement. There’s this big thing where everyone’s going to Europe for furniture now cos they do it so well and it’s so cheap. They’re setting up proper schools cos it’s like they’re getting wise to the market. Like the art market and the design market. So all the big buyers are going over there and he’s deliberately staying here. He’s trying to prove that…I dunno. Heritage, or– I dunno. I just wanna be good.

Debs. You will be. You’ll be amazing. You are brilliant Ryan.

Ryan. Shut up.

Debs. I mean it.

Ryan. Thanks girlfriend who’s obliged to say that.

Debs. I’m, like, 90% sure I’d say it if I didn’t know you.

Ryan. Somehow I can’t imagine you looking at a piece of furniture and saying, ooh, that’s a fine example of late-baroque fluting. Look at that detailing.

Debs. I bought the spice rack didn’t I?

Ryan. And we don’t even own any spices.

Debs. And we don’t own any spices. Exactly. That’s appreciation of design.

Ryan. I take it back. You’re a guru.

Debs. And you’re fucking great. And these new chairs will be fucking great. And Vulcan will love it.

Ryan. Thanks. I’m gonna pretend you didn’t just call him Vulcan.

Debs. Whatever.

Ryan. It’s Vincent.

Debs. I know his name.

Ryan. Vincent Voltan.

Debs. I prefer Vulcan.

Ryan. I remember when he used to just cruise around college staring at us all. Just staring like that.

Ryan stares in a weird, creepy way.

Ryan. Not even looking at our work. I thought he was such a weirdo. Honestly I just thought he was there to pick up teenagers.

Debs. Maybe he was.

Ryan. Nah.

Debs. Has he ever come onto you?

Ryan. No.

Debs. Has he never, like, leant over you and just kind of grazed your crotch when he’s examining a piece of furniture.

Ryan. He’s got a wife. She’s actually pretty fit for a forty-five year old or whatever she is.

Debs. She could be a beard.

Ryan. He’s already got a beard.

Debs. I mean it could be a sham marriage.

Ryan. You’re a sham marriage.

They spontaneously start simulating comical, energetic vertical sex, humping each other grotesquely, noises included. Just as abruptly, they stop.

Debs. Are you not gonna drink tonight then?

Ryan picks up his beer can in response. He takes a swig.

Debs. I mean are you not gonna drink drink?

Ryan. I’m still gonna drink drink. I do my best work when I’m hungover.

Debs. No way…

Ryan. Seriously.

Debs. I couldn’t imagine anything worse.

Ryan. Oh yeah. Jogging pants. Rounds of jam on toast. Flask of tea. Maybe a cheeky hair of the dog. Best way.

Debs. Sounds like hell.

Ryan. You sound like hell.

Debs. I’m your worst nightmare.

Ryan. You’re my wildest dream baby.

He reaches out for her. She comes into him and they kiss. Then they do the sex dance again.

They pull apart.

Ryan. Do I taste of beer?

Debs. It’s really fit. Do I taste of wine?

Ryan. I got ripe berries and smoke with plummy overtones and a smooth chocolatey finish.

Debs laughs. Ryan picks up her bottle of wine and reads the label, nodding like a connoisseur.

Ryan. 2004 Malbec. Thought so.

Debs. Wish I knew about wine.

Ryan. Nah.

End of conversation. He tops her up. Then he finishes his beer, crunches the can, sends it on a high arc into the bin, and cracks open a fresh one.

Ryan. Sorry if I was aggressive before.

Debs. What? No.

Ryan. I just want you to know I’ll be there. I know that sounds really cheesy but I will be. I’ll make it work, whatever it is. You don’t need anyone else now. You’ve had a really hard time, but it’s over.

Debs. Cheers.

Ryan. If anyone tries to hurt you. I’ll…hurt them.

Debs. Spoken with true conviction.

Debs smiles, rubs Ryan’s shoulder.

Ryan. So is this thing literally in Platt Fields?

Debs. Yeah but you know it’s just fireworks right? They’re not doing a bonfire this year.

Ryan. That is bullshit.

Debs. I know it’s crazy. Apparently loads of places do it now.

Ryan. That’s like a childhood institution. Disappeared.

Debs. But Nicole says it gets stupid busy after about eight. So we’ll probably find a pub or something. Or just go back to someone’s house.

Ryan. Sweet. Just so you know, it’s ten to eight.

Debs. What?

Ryan shows her his watch.

Debs. Oh my god. I swear it was like four o’clock ten minutes ago.

Ryan. Ten minutes ago it was twenty to eight.

Debs. How does this always happen to me?

Ryan. And by extension, me.

Debs. You’re the one with the watch!

Ryan. To be fair unless somethings on fire I’m not that interested anyway.

Debs. I love it when you don’t give a shit.

Ryan. I never give a shit. About anything.

Debs. Do you wanna fuck?

Ryan. Absolutely.

Debs takes his hand.

Ryan. Like right now?

Debs. Do you not wanna?

Ryan. No I definitely do. What time did we say we were meeting them?

Debs pauses – a potentially impulse-killing question.

Ryan. Actually…I don’t give a shit.

She leads him out the kitchen by the hand.

Fireworks start in the distance.

Same. 2006.

Debs is sat at the table, face in hands, weeping. Ryan’s sat on the other side of the table, leaning over to comfort her.

Ryan. Hey. Hey.

He does this for a little while. For half a second he looks a bit bored, but regains focus.

Ryan. Debs. Debs. Look at me. Debs. It’s gonna be fine. It’s all gonna be alright. Debs.

Debs. Nine months? How is that even a thing?

Ryan. Yeah. I dunno.

Debs. I mean what’s the point in even telling us? Why say it? How would a nine month wait even be a…

Ryan. I don’t know. It’s stupid.

Debs. Fucking wankers.

Ryan. The whole thing’s just…

Debs. They think I’m a bad mum.

Ryan. No they don’t.

Debs. They do. They think I’m a terrible mother.

Ryan. No one thinks you’re a terrible mother.

Debs. They do.

Ryan. What, so you’re supposed to be able to, what, fuckin’…look inside her. Like you’re supposed to have x-ray vision and be able to see her kidneys? It’s totally, like– like how would you even know? How would you even know there was something you were supposed to know?

Debs. They said her wee would be different.

Ryan. Who’s checking the colour of their kid’s wee? What kind of insane person does that?

Debs. But I can’t do anything. I can’t afford to do anything about it.

Ryan. Yeah but that’s– that’s…

Debs. The way they looked at me when they said, do you have any savings. They were going on about charities that’ll meet you half way and I’m like, I can’t even get half way.

Ryan. No one’s thinking that though. You’re young. You’re a young mum.

Debs. It was embarrassing. And mum. Talking about how she always had a little put aside in case of emergencies. I’m such an idiot. I’m such a shit mum.

Ryan. You’re not. Debs. You’re not. I promise you. Come on, you love Juniper like, like– like it’s insane how much you love her. Doctors know when they see a lemon. They weren’t treating you like a lemon.

Debs. Weren’t they?

Ryan. Nah. No way.

Debs. Am I the worst person in the world?

Ryan. No. Johnny Borrell from Razorlight is the worst person in the world.

Debs tries to smile. Cracks again.

Debs. We can’t wait. Not for nine months.

Ryan. Then we’ll find a way of going private. Go with that dude in Belgium they kept going on about. Like the best dude out there. We’ll make it work.

Debs. There is a way.

Ryan. No. Not that way.

Debs. He has insurance. From work.

Ryan. No Debs.

Debs. But no one’ll have to pay. His work’ll pay.

Ryan. I said no. We don’t need it.

Debs. Then how? It’s right there for us. He offered.

Ryan. Debs we’re not using him in a crisis. We’re not gonna be those people who let him in the first problem we have.

Debs. He’s her dad. He should be looking after her.

Ryan’s hurt.

Debs. That came out wrong.

Ryan. He can’t cover Belgium.

Debs. Forget Belgium. We can’t cover Belgium.

Ryan puts his head in his hands. He seems to be formulating a plan.

Debs. What? What is it?

He’s resolved himself.

Ryan. The money. The commission money.

Debs. No. That’s…no.

Ryan. It’ll come through in like two weeks. I’ve delivered the whole line.

Debs. Ryan we’re not using that money. You need a studio.

Ryan. Not right this minute. I’m just sat drawing pictures all day. I could do that anywhere. Do that on the patio.

Debs. No that’s– that was gonna change things.

Ryan. It will change things. This is what happens. You work to pay for the stuff you need.

Debs. What about everything else? There won’t be any left after this.

Ryan. We’ve been fine up till now. I ain’t starvin.

Debs shakes her head. Almost breaks again.

Ryan. You can either take out a loan and work up a load of debt– more debt to pay for a specialist. And have to deal with that shit show. Or you can hang around on a waiting list for nine months, hoping for a cancellation. All that worry on like a daily basis. Or…or we can have this whole thing sorted in two weeks. Whole thing. Two weeks. We’ll make a holiday of it. You, me, Juniper. Go look at a castle or something. Or whatever it is they have in Belgium.

Debs. Legoland.

Ryan. Legoland. There you go. Tell you what, if we do find one of these charities that pays half, then I’ll take whatever’s left of the commission money and spend it on whatever the fuck I want.

Debs. Yeah, definitely. I’ll make you. A studio.

Ryan. Yeah, that’s what I’ll do. This is just one of those things we have to deal with ourselves.

Debs dries her tears. Nods a bit.

Ryan. And while we’re at it…like, why doesn’t Juniper just move in here?

Debs. What?

Ryan. It’ll stop bellend bothering your mum every week. And you’ll be able to see her every day. Look after her through all this and stuff.

Debs. Yeah. Yeah no it does make sense.

Ryan. And then maybe we can go on a proper holiday, once it’s all done. The three of us.

Debs. Where to?

Ryan. I don’t know. Somewhere cool. Not Belgium.

Debs almost cracks again.

Ryan. Hey, hey. Listen: you know what I’m gonna ask, don’t you?

Debs. What?

Ryan. Is there anything we can do about it right now? Right this moment?

Debs. No…

Ryan. Actually you’re wrong. Say yes.

Debs. Yeah, okay.

Ryan. Yeah?

Debs. Yeah. Yeah.

Ryan. Good. Awesome. I’ll sort it.

He moves over to her and puts his arm around her.

Debs takes a deep breath and stands up from the table. She wipes her eyes and straightens out her top. Ryan purposefully knocks up a couple of gin & tonics, so that they’re ready by the time Debs notices what he’s doing.

Ryan presents her with a gin & tonic. She doesn’t take it.

Debs. Oh. I was gonna ask if you wanted a cup of tea.

Ryan. Too late. Come on. It’ll do you good. Stiff drink.

Debs. Thanks. Thank you.

Ryan adopts a jovial, comical voice.

Ryan. Ahnooo worries. Anytime, m’ladeee.

Debs offers a small laugh. Ryan holds his glass up. They cheers. Ryan briefly wraps his arm around Debs’ shoulders.

Ryan. We’re done, yeah. Moving forward and all that. It’s good.

Debs. It was just so…

Ryan. Totally out the…

Debs. Such a shock…

Ryan. You just don’t think it’s gonna happen to…

Debs. Kind of thing that happens to other people…

Ryan. One minute you’re…

Debs. Keeping yourself to yourself. Next minute…

Ryan. You find yourself thinking, ‘why me?’

Debs. What kind of god would allow this?

Ryan. Just gotta take it one day at a time…

They share a knowing laugh at their escalating flurry of clichés.

Debs. Do you think I should’ve had savings?

Ryan. Well it’s by the by, I mean…

Debs. No but do you think I’m irresponsible for not having savings? A bit?

Ryan. I dunno. Not really.

Debs. Do you think I’m a good mum?

Ryan. Yeah. Course I do.

Debs. I’m sorry.

Ryan. What for?

Debs. For everything. For me.

Ryan. Don’t be daft.

Debs. I am gonna get a proper job. Something I wanna do.

Ryan. Well don’t– you’ve got a lot on your plate at the moment, so don’t…

Debs. And you’ll get a studio.

Ryan. Course. Do you wanna stay in tonight then?

Debs. No. I wanna see everyone. Shell and Becki already know. I told them yesterday. Jordan’s gonna be there. Just so you know.

Ryan. Oh god.

Debs. You really don’t like him do you?

Ryan. All he talks about are his fucking photographs.

Debs. He’s got a new book out so it’s gonna be even worse tonight.

Ryan. He has no social skills. I don’t even know why he bothers coming out. He literally talks about photography non-stop. No one else even remotely knows who or what he’s going on about.

Debs. He’s really good though.

Ryan. I don’t doubt it. I mean he’s clearly doing well. And that’s fine if you want no life. Or family. Or friends. Or dress sense. Or any knowledge of basic cookery skills or conversational skills, or dental hygiene, or empathy–

Debs is laughing.

Debs. I get it!

Ryan. Basically if you want to be a lonely sociopath. That was harsh. He’s just weird.

Debs. People probably think you’re weird.

Ryan. I’m sure they do.

Debs. Especially looking like that. What you gonna wear?

Ryan shrugs, looks down at what he’s wearing.

Debs. What about that shirt?

Ryan. That shirt? That one shirt I have?

Debs. Don’t be a dick. The one we picked out a couple of weeks ago.

Ryan. Seriously help me out.

Debs. The shirt. The short sleeve one that glistens.

Ryan. Glistens? Oh that. That was ages ago we bought that. That was like two months ago.

Debs. Are you gonna wear it?

Ryan. Yeah. Might do.

Debs. You haven’t worn it yet.

Ryan. I have.

Debs. When?

Ryan. Just…when you weren’t around.

Debs. Do you not like it? I really like it. I think it looks nice on you.

Ryan. Me too. That’s why I bought it.

Debs. Not because I told you to?

Ryan. Nope.

Debs. Iridescent. That’s the word. Not glistening.

Ryan. It’s that kind of two-tone effect.

Debs. I like it. I’ve got eye shadow does that.

Ryan. Yeah I’ve seen it.

Debs. We should get going soon babe.

Ryan. Yeah alright. Hang on then, I’ll…change my shirt.

He grabs a can of beer from the fridge and cracks it open. Then moves to leave. He stops by Debs, puts his beer down, and holds her at arm’s length by the shoulders.

Ryan. Just…yeah.

Debs. Yeah.

They kiss. He leaves.


Same. 2007.

She’s on wine, he’s on beer. They’re both fairly far gone. Debs is dressed to go out for the night. A child’s toys and books lie haphazardly around the room.

Ryan’s trying to close the faulty window, without success. He has a brace over his wrist. It’s new to him; he’s still getting used to it. Debs is reheating leftovers.

Ryan knocks his beer can off the table trying to grab it with his bad hand. He reaches down to pick it up, putting pressure on his broken wrist.

Ryan. Ah, shit!

He presses his wrist, feels out his range of moment delicately.

Ryan. Phillipe. Kind of fucking name is Phillipe? Fuckin’ prick.

Debs stops what she’s doing, bored of this conversation.

Debs. Can we stop using that word now babe? Think you’ve made your feelings clear.

Ryan. I can’t think of a more appropriate word to describe him though. That’s just how it is.

Debs. He’s European. They have a different…way with things.

Ryan. I’m sorry, if someone’s a prick then they’re a prick. Doesn’t matter if you’re French or Italian or…fuckin’ Polynesian.

Debs. They speak French.

Ryan. He’s a prick.

Debs. Everyone’s a prick to someone.

Ryan. Do you fancy him a bit though?

Debs. No.

Ryan. No just a bit though? It’s fine.

Debs. Ryan…

Ryan. Is there a bit of sexual tension between you though? Because he was pretty forward.

Debs. No. I just told you no.

Ryan. So I’m like…what’s the phrase…

Ryan tries to find the phrase. Debs doesn’t help.

Ryan. Ah what is it…I’m like…non gratis.

Debs. What?

Ryan. Am I like public enemy number one now, with your workmates?

Debs. Not really. It was just a weird situation.

Ryan. I just think it was justified. I think there’s an argument for sometimes just…using a bit of physical…

Debs. I would never ever want you to hit someone for me. Ever.

Ryan. If it stops him doing it again…

Debs. No, violence is not a good way to make anyone do anything.

Ryan. Different methods.

Debs. Have you told Voltan?

Ryan. Voltan? No.

Debs. Have you told him you can’t do any work because you broke your wrist on someone’s face? When you were pissed?

Ryan. I wasn’t pissed.

Debs. You were pissed Ryan.

Ryan. I was not pissed.

Debs. Well he’s gonna love that. Gonna love hearing that.

Ryan. I wouldn’t worry about it.

Ryan shrugs. Takes a swig of beer.

Debs. You were drunk.

Ryan. Everyone was drunk. It was a party with free booze.

Debs. You should still be able to control it though. Do you still feel in control of it? I’m serious.

He starts rattling the can on the table.

Ryan. Oh my god…

He gives the can a life of its own. It flies up in the air and thwacks him in the head three times.

Ryan. Ah! Ah! Ah!

It then drags him out of his seat and sends him across the room, until he’s on Debs. He’s laughing. She tries to shrug him off.

Ryan. Oh, come on…

Debs. Yep, very good. Laugh it off.

Ryan. It wasn’t cos I was drunk Debs. I promise I would’ve done that anywhere. Any time of day.

Debs. I’ve never seen you hit someone in the mouth before.

Ryan. And I seem to remember you finishing up the night sat on a kerb crying your little eyes out.

Debs. That was different though wasn’t it.

Ryan. This is after a doner meat and chips. I’m just saying– are you genuinely pissed off with me? Am I in trouble?

Debs. I just hate the idea of you as a violent person. You’re not that kind of person to me. And I hate the idea that you might hurt yourself. It makes me shudder just thinking about it.

Ryan. I’m not gonna hurt myself.

Silence as Debs finishes preparing the meal, which he puts in front of Ryan.

Ryan. Thank you babes.

He holds his broken wrist up at her, by way of silent explanation as to why he didn’t prepare his own dinner.

Ryan. You not eating?

Debs. There’s gonna be food there.

Ryan. Very nice.

Debs. Virma told me specifically not to eat dinner.

Ryan. Oh god, is she gonna grill you on your calorific intake? Like, fuckin…weigh you, compare you to yesterday’s weight. What have you eaten? Just a salad, I promise!

Debs goes with this; clearly a noble skewering of Virma’s character.

Debs. Oh god. I didn’t tell her I’m allergic to walnuts. If she’s put walnuts in anything I’m in so much trouble.

Ryan. Still, might mean she’s put on a serious spread. Bold move that, telling people to skip dinner.

Debs. Apparently she’s a good cook.

Ryan. Maybe she should quit her job and become a chef then. Then you’d never have to see her again.

Debs. She’s not that bad. You’ve never even met her.

Ryan. Well she sounds like a dick.

Debs. She’s a bit of a dick. But I don’t think she’s as aggressive as I make out.

Ryan. I reckon she’s got some issues.

Debs. Err…

She nods to his hand.

Ryan. Yeah I’ve got one issue. It’s a French asshole who won’t leave my girlfriend alone. And to be honest, I think I might have laid that one to rest.

Debs. You’re really proud of yourself, aren’t you?

Ryan. I just don’t want to reflect badly on you. And I don’t want your workmates to think I’m some sort of– you know…

Debs. Thug.

Ryan. Right.

Debs. They don’t.

Ryan. I’d like to see them again. Get to know them properly and all that. They seem like very nice people.

Debs. They’re alright.

Ryan. And anyway, I’ve got my first physio session booked in.

Debs. Have you?

Ryan. Yep. Friday. Called up today.

Debs. Friday?

Ryan. Yeah. 11.30.

Debs. Oh right.

Ryan. Soonest one they had.

Debs. Friday.

Ryan. Yeah…

Debs. Cool. Well good you’re getting it sorted. What time, 11.30?

Ryan. Yeah, why?

Debs. Nothing. I’d better go and sort my stuff out.

She goes to leave.

Ryan. Hang on.

Debs. What?

Ryan. Do you not want to sit with me while I eat?

Debs. I’m late.

Ryan. You’re always late. What’s up?

Debs. Nothing.

Ryan. What’s wrong?

Debs. What? Nothing.

Ryan. Seriously what’s wrong? What have I done?

Debs. Nothing. I said nothing’s wrong.

Ryan. Okay. Okay.

Debs. Alright?

Ryan. Just– if everything’s okay stop acting weird then.

Debs. I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Ryan. Fine. Alright. Sorry.

Debs silently fills up her glass. She drinks. Smiles curtly at Ryan when their eyes meet. She checks the contents of her handbag. Leaves the room, breezing past Ryan.

Ryan shakes his head. Takes a drink.Then:

Ryan. Fuck! Fuck…

Debs comes back through.

Ryan. The zoo. I know. I remember now.

Debs. What?

Ryan. Friday. I’m taking Juniper.

Debs. Well if you can’t make it you can’t make it. You’ll just have to tell her. Again.

Ryan. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I will take her.

Debs. But you’ve gone and booked your physio now.

Ryan. I’ll take her after.

Debs. It closes at five.

Ryan. Yeah…

Debs. So you won’t get in till about half one.

Ryan. Is that not enough time?

Debs. It’s her birthday present. I think she’ll probably want a full day of it.

Ryan. Fine, Saturday then. She got anything on?

Debs. She’s going to Jasper’s birthday party.

Ryan. Jasper? Fuck. Okay. I’ll take her on Friday. I’ll cancel physio.

Debs. No.

Ryan. I will do. I made a promise.

Debs. You can’t cancel physio.

Ryan. No I’ll do it. I’ll just…see if they’ve got a later appointment or something. Next week or something.

Debs. They won’t reschedule. They never reschedule if you’ve cancelled. That’s it. You get like a black mark against your name.

Ryan. Then I’ll get some physio exercises off the Internet. I don’t know Debs. Look I’ll sort it. I said I’ll sort it.

Debs. Don’t get upset.

Ryan. I’m not upset. It’s just an annoying thing.

Debs. Well don’t take her if you find it annoying.

Ryan. Not her. I mean the situation. I fucked up. I messed it up. I’ll sort it. I’ll cancel physiotherapy. I’ll fix it myself. It’s only a wrist.

Debs. Is that a good idea?

Ryan. I can’t bail. I told her I’d take her to Cornwall but fucking bellend had to take her instead. I was gutted.

Debs. She’d rather have gone with you.

Ryan. Well shit Debs, thanks for that. That’s done me the world of good.

Debs. Sorry, I meant– Whole thing was just a mess.

Ryan. Yeah it was. I will cancel. I really wanna go. I’m excited. Feels like we haven’t hung out in ages, me and June.

Debs. You could see a consultant. For your wrist.

Ryan. I can’t. Can’t afford it.

Debs. Talk to Voltan. You’ve been working on new stuff.

Ryan. Voltan’s setting up a workshop in Europe. He’s not buying anything.

Debs. What about other collectors?

Ryan. I don’t know any. I don’t…move in those circles. You need to go to gatherings, conferences for that kind of stuff.

Debs. Right, right. Lone wolf and all that. Paying off well isn’t it?

Ryan. The other option is I spend six nights a week moping around showings and exhibitions and grinning at shit furniture and talking to idiots who like the shit furniture. So I think I know what we’d both choose. And anyway I can’t show collectors what I’m making because I work from a bedroom. And now…

He gestures to his broken wrist.

Debs. Can’t Voltan help you? Or set you up with someone?

Ryan. He doesn’t owe me anything. I mean he invited me to help set up the workshop but…

He gestures vaguely around the room.

Debs. Can you call him? Talk to him?

Ryan. Look. He gets excited. He was excited by me for a bit. Now he’s excited about setting up a workshop in Bulgaria like everyone else is. I can send him an email but…he’s busy.

Debs. Okay. I didn’t know that. So what are you gonna do, d’you think?

Ryan. I don’t know Debs. What would you like me to do?

Debs. I’m just surprised. I didn’t know any of this.

Ryan. I haven’t told you.

Debs. So don’t bite my head off when I ask questions.

Ryan. Sorry. No one’s buying now anyway. February’s a good time.

They drink.

Ryan. Do you think I’ll have to drop her off at bellend’s house afterwards? After the zoo?

Debs. He said he’ll pick her up from here. I think he wants to talk about some stuff.

Ryan. What stuff?

Debs. Prep school stuff.

Ryan. Already?

Debs. This is late. Should’ve had it sorted ages ago.

Ryan. Just the two of you then? Talking it all through?

Debs. Yeah.

Ryan nods slowly. Drinks.

Debs. I’d better go.

Ryan. Do you think Phillipe’s gonna sue me?

Debs. No. Definitely not.

Ryan. What makes you say that?

Debs. He’s not that kind of person.

Ryan. Why, what’s he like?

Debs. He’s not gonna sue you Ryan. Forget about it now. It’s done with.

Ryan. Thanks for dinner.

Debs. You’re alright.

Ryan. Have fun tonight.

Debs. I’ll try.

She heads to the door.

Ryan. I love you.

Debs. I love you too. It’ll be alright babe. Something’ll come.

She turns back to him. They kiss. Debs heads for the back door. As she leaves.

Ryan. What time will you be back?

Debs. Not late.

She exits. Ryan starts eating his dinner alone.


Same. 2008.

There are now two needlessly high-quality chairs in the kitchen, just used as generic furniture.

Ryan’s no longer wearing his wrist brace. He is however wearing a red polo shirt with some sort of company logo on the breast pocket.

He’s slamming at the faulty window, trying to thrust it closed. He has a beer on the go. He has a bit of buzz on.

Debs is going through a pitch document. It has pullout pages of fonts, moodboard-type A3 foldouts, sample leaflets, etc. She frequently drinks from her wine glass, fills it up.

Ryan gives up trying to close the window.

Ryan. Fuck’s sake.

He turns round, rubs his face. He thinks for a second what to do next, then sees his beer and finishes it. He takes another from the fridge, cracks it open and takes a swig. He slumps down on a chair.

Ryan. That work is it? Debs.

Debs looks up.

Debs. Yeah?

Ryan drums on the table for a second. He tries to lean over to see what Debs is doing, but gives up.

Ryan. What is it?

Debs. Got a client, wants to just…basically start again with everything. Wants a whole new campaign concept by Monday.

Ryan. That’s annoying. It is a big one?

Debs. Biggish.

Ryan. Hey knock knock.


Ryan. Debs, knock knock.

Debs. Who’s there?

Ryan. Biggish.

Debs. Biggish who?

Ryan. Sorry mate I’ve got no change.

Debs smiles without taking her eyes off her work. Ryan fills in the silence sardonically, almost to himself.

Ryan. Satirical comment on our dismissive attitude…towards low-income street vendors…

Debs takes out her mobile phone and sends a couple of texts.

Ryan. D’you think if you took your salary and my wage, and put them next to how many hours we actually worked, whether they’d be the same? Or who do you think would earn more? In reality.

Debs. That’s a good question.

Ryan. Because when I’m done I’m done. But when you’re done…well you’re never done.

Debs. Can say that again.

Ryan grows bored and exits.

He returns a moment later with a toolbox. From inside he takes out a screwdriver. Over at the window, he tries to unscrew the frame. Debs continues drinking, flicking through her folder. Ryan tuts.

Ryan. Shit…

Another moment.

Ryan. Ah man– the screw’s– the, what’s it called, it’s… They’ve worn right through. Can’t get any purchase on the screwheads. Someone’s had a go at that before. Totally botched it.

He drops the screwdriver into the toolbox.

Ryan. That’ll be a fun job tryina sort that out. You know I’ve called Tim about six times about that window. He literally couldn’t give a shit. He’s like, yeah I’ll send someone over. Bullshit. He didn’t get it sorted when he lived here, he damn sure ain’t gonna do it now.

Debs. I might run over to Grace’s later.

Ryan. Yeah?

Debs. Yeah. Just for a couple of hours.

Ryan. What time? It’s getting on a bit.

Debs. I just– I’m banging my head against the wall with this.

Ryan. Phillipe gonna be there?

Debs. What? No.

Ryan. Makes a change.

Debs. Come along if you want.

Ryan. I’m in early tomorrow so I won’t. Need a good night’s kip.

He drinks.

Ryan. Cheers for the invite though.

Debs. You know you’re always welcome.

Ryan. Yeah, funny that.

Debs. Is it? Why’s it funny? Ryan, why’s it funny?

Ryan. Dunno.

Debs. No tell me. What is it you find funny?

Ryan. I’ve just never actually heard you actually invite me. And actually mean it.

Debs. I just did. That’s what I just did.

Ryan. No I mean– never mind.

Debs. Well what?

Ryan. Nothing. Seriously nothing.

Debs. Can you just not do that please?

Ryan. Do what?

Debs. Just for a bit.

Ryan. Do what?

Debs. Make your little comments and act as if you’ve been so badly treated, and then not actually have anything to complain about.

Ryan. Is that what I do is it?

Debs. Like when you’re actually asked what’s wrong.

Ryan. Okay I’m sorry. If I do that then I’m sorry.

Debs. Okay.

She returns to her work.

Ryan. I really am sorry Debs.

Debs. Okay. Sorry for snapping.

Ryan. I don’t mean to piss you off.

Debs nods without taking her eyes off her work.

Ryan. Sometimes we forget we’re like a unit, don’t we? Sometimes.

Debs. Yeah, it’s just when you do that it gets a bit annoying when I’m trying to focus on something.

Ryan. Okay. Well as I said I’m sorry.

Debs. It’s alright.

Ryan. Why don’t you do that upstairs? If you need privacy.

Debs. I don’t need privacy. I don’t mind you being here.

Ryan. Oh you don’t mind. That’s good.

Debs. Please, please drop the attitude. It’s so exhausting.

Ryan. Well I do live here.

Debs. It’s that. That’s what I mean. And I’m sorry I’m bringing this home. Believe me I do not want to be doing this right now.

Ryan. That’s not a problem. We have to do these things. I’m really not trying to make things hard for you. I’m happy. I’m happy Debs. Are you happy?

Debs. I’m over the moon, babe.

Ryan. Good. I’m sorry. Let’s just– Do you want a top up?

Debs. I’m alright.

Ryan. Can we just make things go back to normal?

Debs. They are back to normal.

Ryan. No they’re not.

Debs. Well I don’t know then.

Ryan. If there’s anything I can do to help. Honestly.

Debs doesn’t respond.

Ryan. Just tell me what to say. Just tell me what combination of words will just click you into just…feeling normal.

Debs. What?

Ryan. What fucking code do I need to use to unlock all this shit and make you actually want to fucking engage…

Debs. I literally do not know what you’re talking about.

Ryan. Just think, in your mind, about what I could possibly say, or do, to make you feel okay and normal again. And happy with us and wanting to be with me…

Debs. That’s a really unpleasant thing to say.

Ryan. And let’s just pretend I said it or did it. Just now. Please? Please. Because I would do it, whatever it is. I just don’t know what it would be. I’m asking you with whatever tiny morsel of goodwill you have left inside you for me, just do that.

Debs. I’m just trying to do my work and have literally one second to myself to just think…

Ryan. That’s not what it is. It’s this whole situation. You know, I think about how you talk about me. To your friends or whatever. Like I’m imagining how you are when I come up in conversation. And it’s like– I really can’t imagine you saying actual nice things anymore. You know, oh he works hard. He makes me laugh. He, he– I’m really attracted to him.

Debs. I am attracted to you.

Ryan. Are you though?

Debs. Yeah course I am.

Ryan. But like– do you know what I mean though?

Debs. Yeah I do. But you really don’t come up that much. We actually have work to do at work.

Ryan. Okay. Okay then. Well that’s okay then.

Debs. Where the hell did all that come from?

Ryan. I don’t know.

Debs. Since when did you give a shit about how I spoke about you to other people?

Ryan. Since I stopped assuming you said nice things about me.

Debs. Babe.

Ryan. And you spend so much time in, like, work mode. And you have all these drinks to go to and…just weird gatherings and events and stuff.

Debs. That’s just part of the job.

Ryan. No I mean it’s good. That you’re… but sometimes I think what’s left? Of you. For us. Are we still having fun? I guess is…

Debs. I promise next time I’m doing something I’ll bring you with me. I’ll drag you along with me. It’ll be good.

Ryan. Okay. That’s a good idea. I mean, I still don’t know if that’s exactly it, but–

Debs. Well let me know when you’ve figured it out.

Ryan. Yeah that sounds about right.

Debs. I’m gonna head over to Grace’s.

Ryan. Let’s just reset a sec. Let’s just…

Debs starts packing away her folder..

Ryan. Juniper’s back tomorrow.

Debs. Yeah.

Ryan. So that’s something.

Debs. Yeah.

Ryan. I’ll pick her up from bellend. And then he doesn’t get to see her for another six weeks.

Debs. Yep.

Ryan. I’m really excited about that.

Debs. Me too.

Ryan. We could do something tomorrow.

Debs. What time?

Ryan. I’m doing a 7-5, so I could be back here for six?

Debs. Actually no, can’t do tomorrow anyway.

Ryan. Well, this weekend then.

Debs. Okay. Yeah.

Ryan sits Debs back down.

Ryan. And then maybe we can see if your sister wants to take June to the cinema. Give ourselves a few hours.

Debs. My sister?

Ryan does an impression of Debs’ sister.

Ryan. Debs darlin’. No that’s not it. What is it? Debbie darlin’. Yeah. Debbie darlin’ can you come over here a sec? Debbie…

Debs cracks a smile, does a much more accurate impression.

Debs. Debbie darlin’ I’m gonna put the receipt for those nappies just here for you alright?

Ryan. Haha! Debbie darlin’.

Debs. Debbie darlin’ if you could leave the exact money just on the side there by tomorrow that’d be tip top actually.

Ryan laughs, settles, rubs Debs’ thigh.

Ryan. You’ve nailed that.

He lies one of his legs over Debs’ lap. He kisses her. She goes with it for a second.

Ryan wraps his arms around her neck, kisses her more passionately. It’s clear to him that she’s not responding with the same enthusiasm. He slowly pulls away.

Debs. I just– I don’t want to give you the wrong impression. I’m really…

She nods to her folder.

Ryan. Okay.

Debs. I’m sorry.

Ryan. Don’t be. No it’s–

Debs. Got so much in my head right now.

Ryan. No I get it.

Debs. I’m really just…not in the right frame of mind.

Ryan. But you get into the frame of mind. That’s kind of not really trusting the process, is it?

Debs. Can you please just respect my decision? It is my decision, I do get to make it.

Ryan. This is what I mean though. Like, I masturbate more than we have sex. Like, way more.

Debs. That’s depressing.

Ryan. Yeah it is. It’s really depressing.

Debs. I don’t know what to tell you.

Ryan. No, I just wanted to share that with you. Surely that’s a problem.

Debs. Maybe you should take up a hobby. Meet some new people.

Ryan. To pornography. To like, hardcore pornography.

Debs folds up her folder and stands up.

Debs. I’ll leave you to it then.

Debs exits into the house.

Ryan is left to seethe.

He moves back over to the window. Tries to close it again. Now he slams it, only to have it bounce back open. He slams it again. And again, and again, and again. Not even trying to close it anymore, just venting.

Debs comes back in.

Debs. What the hell was that?

Ryan. Nothing.

He shrugs.

Ryan. Just trying to…

He gestures to the window.

Ryan. I thought you were going out?

Debs exits again.

Ryan sits by himself.


Same. 2009.

Ryan’s leaning agains the counter top, looking through the contents of a mobile phone. He stands alone for a few moments, focused on the phone.

Debs enters, Ryan drops the phone on the counter. It clatters across the surface and falls onto the floor.

Ryan tries to look nonchalant. Debs picks up the phone.

Debs. What are you doing?

Ryan. Hah?

Debs. Were you looking through my phone?

Ryan. Pardon?

Debs. Were you looking through my phone?

Ryan shrugs, shakes his head.

Ryan. Nah.

Debs. What the fuck?

Ryan. It just dropped.

Ryan leans over to inspect it.

Ryan. Is it okay?

Debs. It just dropped? You were reading my messages.

Ryan. No I wasn’t.

Debs. Why’s it open on my messages then?

Ryan. I wasn’t… I wasn’t–

Debs. Don’t bother lying Ryan. I literally saw you.

Beat. Debs hands the phone back to Ryan.

Ryan. What?

Debs. Go on.

Ryan. No.

Debs. Go on.

He tries to hand it back. Debs won’t take it.

Debs. If you’re gonna do it you might as well do it.

Ryan. I don’t want to.

Debs. Well you clearly do. Go on.

Ryan holds the phone for a second, not looking at it.

Ryan. Who’s Jeremy?

Debs. He’s another account exec.

Ryan. Handsome?

Debs. A bit, yeah.

Ryan. He going tonight is he?

Debs. You tell me. You’ve read the messages. He’s got a fiancée.

Ryan. Yeah yeah no– just…

Debs. Anything else? Anything else about my private life you want to talk about?

Ryan gestures with the phone, still not looking at it.

Ryan. There’s literally nothing from Phillipe here.

Debs. I told you I haven’t spoken to him in ages.

Ryan. Yeah but this goes back to…like, July. And you definitely spoke to him in July because…

Debs. So…?

Ryan. And August and September. So…

Debs. Yeah?

Ryan. So where’ve they gone?

Debs. Where’ve what gone?

Ryan. The messages.

Debs. What messages?

Ryan. The messages that you obviously sent each other.

Debs. I don’t know.

Ryan. They’ve just disappeared off your phone have they?

Debs. Guess so.

Ryan. Oh so they just– literally just disappeared. One minute they’re there. Next minute, whoop. Gone.

Debs shrugs.

Ryan. I don’t want to be the person who does this kind of stuff. I hate it.

Debs. You hate it? How do you think I feel?

Ryan. I never thought I’d be this person. But now, when you pull shit like this, I kind of feel a bit justified. Messages just don’t delete themselves.

Debs. What messages are you talking about?

Ryan. I don’t know Debs. I don’t know exactly what they said because I didn’t read them did I? I don’t wanna pry into your personal– that’s not what this is about. I just need to know if he’s gonna be there.

Debs. I told you he’s not.

Ryan drops the phone onto the counter.

Ryan. Look, I understand if you deleted them because you didn’t want me to see the whole– the details or whatever–

Debs. Believe it or not I didn’t plan for you to steal my phone and read my private messages–

Ryan. But I promise you that’s not what I’m interested in. Believe me I do not wanna see that…stuff. I just need to know.

Debs. I’m telling you he’s not gonna be there.

Ryan. Just think for a minute. Just think about where I’m coming from. What I’ve actually done in all this. I forgave you Debs. Think about that.

Debs. Why though?

Ryan. Because I love you.

Debs. Because you don’t blame me. Because you know you’d have done the same.

Ryan. I’m trying to make this work. You said you’d do whatever it takes. You said that.

Debs. I know I did.

Ryan. So it’s not actually a massive deal. It’s not a huge deal for your boyfriend to just double check that you’re not secretly going off with another guy. Or is it? Because I don’t think it is.

Debs. It’s not, no.

Ryan. Is it? You tell me.

Debs. No it’s not a big deal.

Ryan. So if you are prepared to do anything then that’s hardly a big personal fucking sacrifice is it?

Debs. I’d do anything to get us back to normal. And you going through my stuff when I’m not around is not normal. It feels weird.

Ryan. I know I was an idiot. And I haven’t been…whatever. Very good, or… But there’s a line. There’s a line that you don’t cross. You don’t go anywhere near. And I get it, you’re not into, like sharing and stuff. You want to keep it bottled up inside and I know that comes from being a mum. I know that. But not once did you come to me and say, Ryan, I’m having a shit time. Or even Ryan, there’s a guy at work and I’m finding myself attracted to him. And maybe it’s because we’re not spending any quality time together. Or maybe it’s because you’re drinking too much, or– I know that would’ve been scary but…in hindsight–

Debs. Except I couldn’t do that, could I? That’s the exact thing I couldn’t do. The more I think about it, the more I think…maybe I did it because you wanted me to do it?

Ryan. What the fuck does that even mean?

Debs. You want it both ways. You wanna look down on me. You want me to feel like I’m doing something wrong all the time. Because you want to be jealous. And possessive. And to resent all the people in my life that aren’t you. But you don’t actually want a good, real reason to do that. You can’t bear the thought that there’s a genuine thing I’ve done to make you feel that way…but you do it anyway.

Ryan. That is not what this is. Debs–

Debs. You make me feel so guilty, just…because. I don’t know why. Just because. But maybe you pushed me into it. I might as well do the bad thing and then feel actually bad. I’m sick of feeling guilty that I have nothing to feel guilty about.

Ryan. Why would I do that though?

Debs. I dunno, maybe you’re jealous.

Ryan. Well in hindsight maybe I wasn’t jealous enough.

Debs. I mean jealous of me. The fact that I have this whole other side of my life. Work. Work friends. People you don’t really know. A reason to go out every day. People. Just people in my life. You hate that.

I didn’t really want to get with Phillipe. I find him attractive, yes. So? Don’t you find people attractive? I can’t help that. I didn’t plan to get with him. But his name came up so much, you spoke about him so much, I felt like he was part of our life anyway. I started to feel weird about him, just because you’d drilled home this idea. And then he came to me and…it just kind of felt inevitable.

Ryan. Maybe I talked about him so much because it was inevitable.

Debs. I realised I’m not even that bothered about him. It was only a few times we actually did it, and the rest was just talking. Just chatting. And I realised I could get this anywhere. If everything was fine I’d get it from you. You’re amazing. You’re fucking…you’re the best person I’ve ever met. But we’re bad together. I go to work. I come home. You find something to take out on me. We apologise to each other. We fall asleep. I wake up. I go to work… I’m scared because I want to be with you forever. And I just…I want it to go back to being good again.

Ryan. So do I. So do I.

Debs. But I’m scared it won’t. I think we’ve warped ourselves into this weird shape that we can’t go back from.

Ryan. Is that what you think?

Debs. I dunno. I hope not. I dunno.

Ryan. Please be honest with me. Is he gonna be there?

Debs. Oh my god.

Ryan. Is he gonna be there?

Debs. Do you know what it was? Actually. It was being able to talk about anything, and not feel like I was being judged, constantly. It felt so nice.

Ryan. I do want to make this work. I love you.

Debs. I love you too. A lot.

Ryan. Do you?

Debs. Yeah. A lot.

Ryan. Why don’t you stay in tonight?

Debs. Ryan…

Ryan. You look really fit. You look great.

Debs. Thanks.

Ryan. Let’s stay in. Juniper’s not here. We can just get drunk together. Lie on the couch.

Debs. I can’t.

Ryan. Why not?

Debs. I told Grace and everyone– I just can’t.

Ryan. And this is what I’m talking about.

Debs. What?

Ryan. Just constantly fucking– your focus is always just–

Ryan grabs her by the shoulders. He squeezes.

Debs. Ah, ow.

She squirms out of his grasp.

Ryan. Sorry. I’m sorry.

Debs. That hurt.

Ryan. I said I’m sorry, I… Go on. Go. You’re gonna be late.

Debs. What was that?

Ryan. Just go. Have fun.

Debs. What are you gonna do?

Ryan. I’m masturbating again. Like, two or three times a day.

Debs. Pardon?

Ryan. Often when you think I’m working on my own stuff I’m just sat around, I’m actually, you know. Or drinking.

Debs. I thought you were dealing with all that?

Ryan. Occasionally I daydream about you being hit by a motorbike or assaulted or raped, even. Then I imagine myself like getting revenge in some way. Some horrible way, where I use tools on whoever did it to you, and he’s strapped down and can’t move. And sometimes I get away with it and sometimes I go to prison for years and years. Decades. In the daydreams. It’s so weird.

Debs. Okay. What are we talking about now?

Ryan. I love you more than I love anyone in the world. More than I ever have loved anyone. That thought makes me really, really depressed. And I think you’re, like, looking outwards. A lot, actually. Like looking forwards.

I want you to be successful. I want you to run your own company one day and be happy about it. But I’m just–

Debs. Why are you telling me this–

Ryan. I want it out. I want it all out. I can’t sit there judging you if I’m all– I’m not a hypocrite. You think you can’t talk to me and… And if I’ve made you feel that way that you said then I want to make it right. So this is everything. And then you can judge me and then…

I never want to think that you’re smarter than me. I hate the fact that you earn more money than me. Hate it. And I can’t imagine ever marrying you. But that’s mainly because I can’t imagine marrying anyone. And I hate the stories from when you were younger. Even though we never knew each other. Because if we’d known each other maybe you wouldn’t’ve done all that stuff but then only because I was stopping you from doing it. Maybe deep down you’d still want to do it and the only difference would be me. Getting in the way. And maybe that’s what’s been happening anyway, since we’ve been together.

You’ve made me argue more than any other person in my life. I have arguments that I don’t want to have. I have arguments that I don’t want to win. I have arguments that if I saw other people having that argument I would judge them for it. I don’t know why I do this.

I feel like I’ve given you everything I possibly can– I feel like I’ve given you everything whenever you’ve asked for it and even when you haven’t and I hate myself for it. I wish I could have another personality to stop giving fucking everything away. I see other people and their personalities are like, I don’t give a fuck. And they still have friends, and they have girlfriends and careers, and…I want…

I keep making the same mistakes again and again and I watch myself do it. And there’s nothing I can do to stop myself. And I blame you. Sometimes. I guess.

I’m angry. And I lie to everyone about my income. And my prospects. And I tell people that I have potential opportunities to go back to making furniture but I don’t. Not one. And I pretend that it’s my choice and that I’m taking my time to hone my craft but I’m not. I’m scared to even think about building another chair or to use my hands to do anything other than lift and move other people’s shit. My hands literally shake when I think about it. And my wrist aches when I try…after a few minutes it burns. And you’ll never have any of those problems.

And I’m worried about losing my hair. And if I lose my hair you won’t love me anymore and you won’t find me attractive. And there are plenty of attractive bald men but there’s a shitload of men with fucking hair too so you could just go out with one of them.

I’m worried my penis is too thin. And I can only make you come from one angle, doing one thing. And sometimes I look at you lying there and think that you’re bored or you’re thinking you’d rather be doing something completely different. And I’m worried I’m doing something wrong or I’m not doing something that would make it more interesting or exciting for you. And I never want to do anything like have a threesome or do it outside somewhere or anything. And I think you probably do.

What else. I’m worried I’ve made a mistake staying with you all these years. I wonder if there’s someone I could have loved more easily. I see men who are, in my opinion, punching above their weight and I think, I could be one of them. And sometimes I imagine their beautiful girlfriends have some horrific, permanent, contagious STI just to make myself feel okay about my life choices. That sounds a lot worse when I say it out loud.

I’m putting on weight and I can’t be bothered to lose it.

There’s more. Hang on. There’s more.

I really fancy your mate Grace– I don’t fancy her I just really want to see her tits. I think about it every single time I see her. And I know if I did anything sexual with her I’d hate her immediately after. And she probably doesn’t even have the tits I think she has. That’s the truth. I wish I had the courage to seduce someone else. Like Phillipe did. Or just do anything to make my life more dramatic. In any small way. But I’m scared to leave the house in case I meet someone I know and have to justify my whole fucking life to them and where I’m at, and– I’m being forgotten, Debs.

I’m scared I’ll be ashamed of myself forever. I think about myself as a kid, and I know I’ve failed myself. And if that kid met me now he’d feel embarrassed and let down.

I think you might be satan. I have visions of you as the most evil and manipulative thing in the world. I don’t know if that’s the case. I feel like you knew how to be successful. That you had the secret of how to become successful and to just get by. And you never told me what it was. Like you always had the advantage. Because you knew…

I know we lie to each other all the time. Every day. About everything. Tiny little lies and big ones. I have no idea what effect this is having on us. I suspect it’s bad. Maybe it doesn’t matter. I don’t know. I think if you just promise to love me and I just promise to love you then it’ll be okay.

So yeah. Maybe you’re right about everything.

Debs is fairly freaked out. Surreal pause.

Debs. Are– are you finished.

Ryan. Yeah I’m finished, I’m..

Debs. Okay. Thanks. For…

Ryan. You’re welcome.

Debs. Do you think you should talk to someone about these thoughts? Like a proper…someone who might help.

Ryan. I’m gonna do something. I spend too much fucking time sat around feeling sorry for myself. I am gonna do something.

Debs. Good. That’s good. I think that was the weirdest thing that’s ever happened to me.

Ryan. Don’t leave me.

Another weird pause.


2010. Same.

Ryan’s drunk. His speech is slurred, and his movements are loose. He’s opening an envelope. Debs is stood leaning slightly against the counter, quite tense. She occasionally sips from a mug, which she holds close to her.

Ryan. Here we go. Doop be doop be doo…

He takes out the letter and reads it.

Ryan. Nope. It’s a no.

He looks to Debs with a strained smile. Shrugs.

Debs. What does it say?

Ryan. Thank you for your application…unfortunately on this occasion we felt your proposal showed insufficient market insight and a lack of business expertise or acumen… blah blah blah… ultimately we did not see this as a commercial enough prospect…although we are unable to accept future proposals for this project, here are some steps we advise you take…we wish you every success with your venture.

So that’s it. No loan.

Debs. How are you supposed to get market insight and business expertise if they don’t help you get started in the first place.

Ryan. Banks innit. Bunch of cunts.

Debs comes over and hugs him.

Debs. I’m sorry babe. Don’t dwell on it. There’s other options.

Ryan. No there’s not.

Debs. Don’t give up just because of one stupid bank.

Ryan swigs his drink.

Ryan. They’re literally– they’re literally– all they’re doin is tryina get money out of you. They fuckin– that’s all they care about. You know giving it all this about, ohhh, you know we’re tryina– it’s for your welfare and– it’s bullshit. They want whatever they can get. Whatever they can get. I say fuck ’em. Because what have they done for us, actually? What have they done?

Debs. Babe, there’s other options. One rejection from one bank does not mean–

Ryan. Hang on– what have– if you really think about it– you know, when I did my wrist. I did my wrist in. Few years back. Ooh no, can’t have physio. Sorry, have to pay for it. Can’t help your fuckin…muscles and ligaments heal. Can’t have fuckin expert guidance to help them heal properly. No, gotta pay for it, sorry. Here’s what we’ll do, we’ll put a fuckin bandage on it. Put a splint on it like the fuckin medieval times. And then just, on your way. It’s fucked.

He rotates his hand around his wrist to demonstrate.

Debs. It’s not that I don’t agree with what you’re saying. But don’t just lump everything together for–

Ryan. Grants got cut when I was at college. Year before us got offered work placement grants. My year, got cut. Subsidy for studio space got cut. So you fuckin finish your course. 21 years old, skint– where do you start? No subsidy. Means all the little fuckin rich cunts go and get their little pocket money. Their little…ooh daddy, daddy. I want a studio for my little fuckin…little prints of flowers and spots. Little fuckin rip-off prints that I’m gonna sell for nine hundred quid a pop. Why? Because I can. Because people are idiots and they’ll fuckin buy them cos I can afford lovely nice canvases to put them on. You know? So I had to get in with that cunt, fuckin…Vulcan. Voltan. Had to live in his pocket for fuckin…god knows how…two years or whatever. You know, that’s where they leave you. You gotta take whatever comes along first. Get a studio– five hundred quid a month for a bit of floor and a wall? Little corner of a big– Yeah I’ll just pull that out my arse shall I? With my student loan. And my tuition fees I just forked out for. And fuckin rent. In London. Fuckin slumlord paradise.

Debs. No, it’s difficult. It is–

Ryan. Some of them made it. You know, pushed through and– Got the right people to come to their shows or whatever. Hit the right fashions, or got a good PR whatever. And fair play to them. More power to you mate. But you’re the exception. They’re the exception that makes it okay. Cos the colleges and the studios and the fuckin government can go… He’s done it. She’s done it. This exclusive little tiny group of rich people have managed it. So everything’s fine. Everything’s working fine. You can’t all make it. But some of you will so that’s okay. Fuck the rest of you. But it’s not about that. This isn’t about that either.

Ryan’s unsteady on his feet for a minute. He tries absently to jam the broken window frame closed.

Ryan. And look at what Juniper…had happen to her. Payin– sendin her off to fuckin Belgium just so she can– fuckin Belgium. Any help? Any assistance? No mate, sorry. She’s your daughter, your problem mate. Good luck to you. Fuckin thousands of pounds. For something that just happened. No control over it. We didn’t have no control over it. Just– and still… Sorry mate. Fuckin Belgium on your own penny. Bunch of cunts. And so when they fuckin send bills through my door. The door that they get money off the house from the, the building owner, and then again from fuckin…whatsit…

Debs. Council tax.

Ryan. From fuckin council tax. Out of my pocket. My own pocket. Don’t send me a letter mate. You come to me, face to face, and tell me what you’re doin for my benefit. Give me a reason to contribute. Cos at the moment I can’t see one. I can’t see a fuckin one. I don’t even know what I’m on about anymore. You’re not even listenin.

Debs. I am.

Ryan. No you’re not.

Debs. I am.

Ryan. Stood there just fuckin…glazed. Glazed look in your eye. That glazed look you get when you couldn’t give a shit.

Debs. It’s just you’re going off on one again. It’s hard to get through when you’re like this.

Ryan. I’m no use to you any more, am I?

Debs. What?

Ryan. I’m no use to you.

Debs. Right. I’m putting the kettle on. You’re gonna have a cup of tea and we’re gonna watch–

Ryan. You won’t even listen to me when I’m talking to you. Won’t even– six years, I’ve given you. Six, six years.

Debs. You’ve given me? Jesus Christ

Ryan. Oh, need somewhere to live? Sure, no problem.

Debs. Don’t turn this on me. Do not–

Ryan. Yeah come in. Rent? Don’t worry about it.

Debs. I pay rent.

Ryan. Now you do. Your daughter too? You wanna live with her now? Mummy’s done the hard work now you wanna live with her? Bring her in. No fees. Because I love you. I love you.

Debs. Don’t be a dick. Don’t do this.

Ryan. Your daughter’s sick? The daughter that I take afternoons off work so I can pick her up and ferry her around everywhere? I’ll pay for it. I’ll sell my fucking…aspirations down the river to pay for it. I’ll forget about my future. But then, what’s this? Oh, you want to do a training scheme? An internship? Oh suddenly you’ve found some money from somewhere. Oh, here’s a bank account you’d all forgotten about. Mummy’s put some money aside and only now thought it was worth fucking mentioning. Not when her fucking granddaughter nearly died.

Debs. That is not how it was. Oh my god, you know that’s not how it was. Stop twisting everything just to try and put the world against you.

Ryan. Not when her daughter was living in a crack den.

Debs. Her brother died. That was inheritance. And we applied for a bursary–

Ryan. But now, now she’s got on a fucking three month training course and then has to work for free for another two months. And then when you all want to go on a nice little family holiday to celebrate.

Debs. It was a weekend. She was having panic attacks. I’m sick of this shit Ryan. You’re twisting everything because you’re angry and your pissed and you feel like being aggressive.

Ryan. Feel like being– I don’t feel like being aggressive. I gave you everything. Six years, I gave and I gave. And what have I got for it? What’s the, the, fruit of it all? In what way are we even together any more?

Debs. Oh my god.

Ryan. I’m serious though.

Debs. Why don’t you reach out to me more? Why don’t you try?

Ryan. What’s the point? What am I gonna get? A little tight-lipped kiss. A little peck. Little peck peck peck on the lips. All scrunched up like you’re cold. Like your a bit chilly. Little peck and then you push your face into my shoulder. That’s the signal. Pointless. You know what the smell of your hair reminds me of nowadays? It reminds me of not having sex. I don’t try. How hard do I need to try? Fuckin excuse me for thinking it’s supposed to happen naturally. What, am I not squeezing hard enough? Round your waist when you’re faced away from me. How many doodles do I have to draw on your back with my finger?

Debs. If you’re just gonna do this all night then I’m going out.

Ryan. Yep. As usual.

Debs. Well yeah. Rather that than stand here taking abuse all night. Look at me. You need help. This keeps happening and I’m not gonna let it take control of us. I want to be there for you. I really do. But…

Ryan sits down.

Ryan. Why can’t we just say it? Why are we so scared of saying it?

Debs. Saying what?

Ryan. I don’t love you anymore.

Debs. I still love you.

Ryan. Tell the truth. Just please be honest.


Debs. I don’t think I love you either. Anymore.

Ryan briefly puts his face in his hands, rubs his eyes.

Ryan. Why is it so hard? Why’s it always so hard? I just wanna– I just wanna be good. I just wanna be good at what I know I can do. Why is that so hard? Why is the world making everything so fucking difficult?

Debs goes over to him. She rubs his shoulder. He switches on her.


He grabs his chair and slams it back down several times.


He takes an unopened beer can and launches it against the wall.

Debs tries to leave quickly, but Ryan grabs her by the throat, shunting her up against the counter.

He kisses her aggressively. She defends herself by kissing back hard. They break. He does it again, as does she.

He kisses her hard until her mouth opens. He shunts her up against the counter, grabbing her thigh.

He parts her legs and pushes himself into her crotch.

She tries to squirm out from under him.

Debs. Get off!

Ryan. Look at me.

Ryan puts a hand around her throat and shunts her harder back against the counter. He’s leaning so heavily against her that she arches backwards until she’s almost touching the counter top.

He hoists one of her legs onto the countertop. He reasserts himself, now trying to tackle the garments around her crotch. Debs manages to move her face away from his.

Debs. Stop it. Stop this.

Ryan. Fucking open your mouth.

He presses himself against her harder. He grabs her face and guides her mouth roughly to his. When she manages to move her face away again he nuzzles his face into her shoulder, grinding against her.

Finally, out of the blue, it dissipates. Ryan slows, softens, then stops. He remains hunched against her for a moment, then peels away. Debs slaps him.

Debs. The fuck is wrong with you?! What the fuck is wrong with you?!

Debs straightens herself up. She looks at her boyfriend for a moment, then exits.

Ryan slides down the wall until he’s crouching on the floor.


2011. Same.

The kitchen’s empty. The microwave’s humming. There are no longer any toys or books around the space. The faulty window is now fixed.

Ryan enters, a mobile phone clamped to his ear. He’s sober.

Ryan. James, it’s Ryan…yeah yeah. Hi. I’m just calling about the place on Palatine Road. Yeah, the…it’s gone? What already? Wow. Yeah, no. Bloody hell. Okay. Okay…well I really want to stay in Didsbury if I can. Yeah, ideally. Right…Uh. That’s too much, that. Yeah that’s basically what I’m paying here, so…they just put it up last month. Yeah definitely south of that mark. I’d say the other place was the cut-off, price-wise… Alright, no worries. I’ll try again in a couple of days. Alright, cheers.

He hangs up. Looks out the window for a moment.

He makes another call.

Ryan. Hello Darren, you alright? I’m just calling about that time off… It’s just the Sunday, yeah… Yeah no I’m down to work it. I just… Yeah. No I told Gordon yesterday, I’m fine with Boxing day. New year’s day as well yeah. No that’s– I’m fine with that. I just need next Sunday…. It just came up. I just– I wasn’t paying attention when the rota was put up and… Yeah just didn’t think to…

The microwave dings. As he talks he takes out a pot of instant noodles from the microwave, takes a fork and stirs the contents, blows on it, starts eating, etc.

He sits down on a chair and notices that it’s wobbly. He finds this slightly distracting throughout the rest of the call.

Ryan. No I know… I have a prior engagement… The zoo… No I’ve asked them… They haven’t– I’m waiting to hear back from them… No literally just the zoo yeah… Quite important, yeah. Otherwise I wouldn’t bother with all this would I…

A housemate enters. He and Ryan share the slightest of nods. He grabs a couple of things from a cupboard then exits again.

Ryan holds on the line. He wobbles the chair with his bum. Takes a forkful of noodles.

Ryan. Yeah hi… Christmas eve? As well as Boxing day and new year’s day? Okay, yeah… Well I guess– if that’s literally… And there’s nothing I could take in November? No yeah I understand. It’s a crazy time… No that’s no problem. That’s an 11-7 is it, Christmas eve?11-8, okay… So that’s Christmas eve, Boxing day and new year’s day… And the 27th and the 28th, yeah. Got that down already. And I’m good for Sunday? Cleared for Sunday. Great, cheers. Alright, thanks Darren. Say hi to the lads for me. Cheers mate. Bye.

Ryan hangs up. He tries to make another call, but gets no answer.

He stands up and leaves the room for a moment.

He returns with his tool box. He moves his noodles out the way and turns the chair upside down onto the table. He examines the wonky feet, then takes out a scrap of coarse sandpaper from the toolbox and carefully begins to sand one of the feet down.

He blows the dust off, checks the levels, then continues sanding carefully, completely focused on the job at hand.


Gangster Priests – Part One


Father Caine – 50s. The Boss.

Father Dymmock – 60s. Dreary alcoholic.

Father Labine – 30s. Dumb henchman.

Father McCullagh – 40s. Mouthy Irish bastard.

Father Tremaine – 50s. Morally conflicted. Too old for this shit.

Father Ransome – 30s. Young, observant, ambitious.


Parish house, afternoon.

All the priests, bar Dymmock, are sat around drinking tea.


Fuck is Father Dymmock?



Eh? Where’s fuckin Dymmock? Hello? Talkin to myself am I?


He’s doing the five o’clock at Bluefield.


He’s doin the what?


The five o’clock.


At Bluefield?




The fuck is he doin that for?


Cos I did his midday here.


And why in great Satan’s arsecrack did you do his midday here?


I had errands.


Errands. You fuckin comedian. You had errands? And what possible errand could you have had, Labine? When the entire universe of your day should have been encompassed in my simple instructions to wake the fuck up, sit on your arse for four hours, do the five pm service you were scheduled to do, then come over here and wait without causing any major accidents. What errands did you manage to squeeze in to that so as to fuck up the entire evening’s proceedings?

Labine shrugs.


Just errands.


What the fuck does it matter? Labine does the 12 o’clock. Dymmock does the five o’clock. What’s worth getting your bollocks in a twist for?


I’m glad you asked. I’m glad one of you had the presence of mind to ask, even if it was the fuckin farmhand. It’s especially worrying considering I briefed you all on this two weeks ago. Honest to fuck, you can remember the entirety of Mark’s Gospel in Latin but you can’t recall what you had for fuckin breakfast. The reasons why this is another monumental mark on Labine’s already heavily annotated card, are twofold. Firstly by five pm Dymmock would’ve got enough sacramental wine down him to drown a warship. By now he’ll be makin as much sense as the old biddies on the dementia ward.


They won’t notice the difference down there.


The dribblin cadavers who’ve been wheeled in there maybe not. But you can bet your bollocks the nurses will. And that’s exactly what we need, more idle speculation surrounding this bag of turds you call a parish. And anyway, that’s small cheese compared to the second problem. Which is I’ve got half a ton of tainted Eucharist floating into the estuary at 7.30. And believe it or not, Padre Matissio is going to expect Father Dymmock’s rosatia-ridden mug grinning at him from the dock, otherwise he’s gonna think the whole thing’s gone sour. Say what you want about the old fermented bag of fruit, but for some unholy reason he’s got a way with people. They trust him. That’s why we put him up there in all the deals. We turn up without him, it’s gonna look like we’re pullin a right number.


Tainted eucharist? What you gonna do with that?


I’m gonna feed it to the old dears down at St. Patricia. Give them a CAFOD meeting to remember. The fuck you think I’m gonna do with it? Colleges break for Easter on Thurday. They wanna go out ravin. What they gonna do, shove a load of pills up their bum?


So they buy unleavened bread?


Laced with the finest DMT you’ll find this side of India mate. Only one thing harder to get hold of round here and that’s pure uncut Pakistani opium, which forget about it. College kids ain’t about buyin baggies off hoods on street corners anymore. They got university careers to think about. We put on a special student mass, they park their arses on the pews, collection plate goes round, we lay it on them. Three hours later they’re dancin on the clouds.

Tremaine shakes his head.


That’s pretty smart.


Thank you. I know. I came up with it.


No you didn’t. Italians been doin it for years.


Shut your spud hole. Except now whole thing might be scuppered because this casualty went and started swapping around the schedule without permission, which he still hasn’t explained why. Errands. Gimme a fuckin break.


I’ll go.


What’s that son?


I’ll go. To the meet.


Will you now? Well well. Look at new boy over here. Fuckin Ballykissangel over here. Fuckin choirboy wants to come along on a drop. Where’d that come from then?


Be a shame to derail the whole thing over a misunderstanding. Worth a shot.


You do realise you get on that boat and look at them funny, even for a second, Matissio will slit you open.

Ransome shrugs.


They ain’t fuckin about mate. They come from a different place. Got all kinds of shit behind them.


I know. I’ll give it a go.


What makes you so sure of yourself then?


I have a trustworthy face.


Fair enough. Ransome’ll come with. See how that one turns out. Still, best make some use of that face of his before he hits puberty and the whole thing goes to shit. Labine, you’re temporarily. And I mean temporarily. Off the hook. You are driving though. McCullagh, Tremaine, go nurse a stout and meet us at the drop off in two hours.


The docks, dusk.

Caine and Ronsome sit on a bench. Ransome is smoking.


Whatever you do, don’t get on the boat. That’s alarm bells time. Everythin happens on the dock. Neutral ground. And don’t talk neither. Not a word. Think it’s that one there. See. Like two lights. Like two blinking lights, just.


Oh yeah. Like 200 yards.


Bout that.


Couple of minutes then.


Listen, the split might get a little sticky on this one. Even though that old cunt didn’t have the neurons to turn up, he did broker the whole thing. That swallows up the lion’s share, once operating costs are dealt with.


What about your share?


That comes under operating costs. But Dymmock’s a funny one. You wouldn’t know it to look at him but he’s a shrewd bastard when it comes to his numbers. He’s got a nephew, summink. And a lot of friends called Glen.


So you’re saying there’s nothing in this deal for me then.


I’m saying there’s nothing more than the others are gettin, even though you’re the one riskin your cojones. What I’m saying is you coming out here, putting your face up. It’s not gonna pay off like you’d hoped on this occasion. Is what I’m saying.


Did you hear me quibble about percentages before I offered to come along?




Well then.

He flicks his cigarette away and stands up. Caine follows him to the edge of the mooring.

A small tug-boat pulls in. Caine catches a thrown rope and helps pull it to the bank.

Padre Matissio steps off the boat with two tall, muscular, Italian-looking priests.

Matissio and Caine embrace.


Padre, padre. How are ya? Chao bella. I see you’ve bought your on-board entertainment.


Careful Caine. Those jokes don’t float on the wind like they used to.


Alright alright. We want a nice clean flight. Now I want to introduce you to someone. His name’s father Ransome, and.

Matissio spies Ransome. His face drops.


And he’s one of the best priests we have. New to the parish, he is. Lovely lad.


Where is Dymmock?


He got caught up. No bother. Nothing to worry about. Sends his wishes.


Where. Is. Dymmock?


Look we’ve got the cash. We ain’t packing. We’re here for a friendly swap.


I will not ask again Caine.


Come on Padre. You know me. This here’s a new boy. Showing him the ropes, that’s all. Dymmock got caught up with a five o’clock service.

Matissio looks to his henchmen.


Si muove, uccidere.


Now come on, there’s no need to be speaking all Italian. We got a common language.

Matissio moves over to Ransome and presses a switchblade to his throat. Ransome barely moves.


Alright. Okay. First things first, you get one of your boys to frisk me. No fuckin around. All gentle slow, like. I ain’t carryin Padre. I’m tellin you, it’s legit mi amigo. All legit.



Matissio’s henchmen restrain Caine.


This is ridiculous.


Where is Dymmock?


I’m tellin ya he’s been held up.


Is that a euphemism?


Ain’t a euphemism, no. He’s literally been help up. Look we got the cash. We ain’t tryin to mug you off Padre.


Sulla barca.

The henchmen start to muscle Caine onto the boat. He resists.


No. Now come on. I’m tellin ya. I am telling you. There’s no need to put me on the boat now.

A raspy hum makes everyone stop and listen.

After a moment, Father Dymmock rolls in, slumped over a mobility scooter.

He slows to a stop by the priests, unconscious. Everyone watches.


He’s dead.

He’s not dead. Are you Dymmock. Dymmock?

Matissio nods to a henchman, who moves over and nudges Dymmock.

On the second nudge he snaps awake.


Peace be with you peace be with you peace be with– wah? Where am I? Ha? Oh yes, the drugs deal. Sorry I’m late Padre, I had a service down at Bluefields. I realised I was late so I got here on the fastest mode of transportation I could find.


What about your car, dymmock?

Dymmock thinks, remembers.


Ah feck it. I did drive there in a car, so I did. Have to go back for that later.

Dymmock takes in the scene.


What the bleedin’ hell’s goin on here then? For pity’s sake Matissio, put the knife away.

Matissio lowers his switchblade. He nods at his henchmen, who release Caine.


Look at you. Honest to goodness. With your weapons and your frowny faces. You Italians have become so uptight since you stopped fiddlin with the little boys. Well, what the feck are you waiting for? Are we doing this or not then? We’ve all got homes to go to.

Matissio nods to his henchmen, who move onto the boat to pick up the stash. Dymmock moves over to Ransome.


Well hello there young Father Ransome! How are you lad? Your first job with us, that’s exciting, isn’t it?

He spins to Caine.


This fecker better not be getting my cut?


Your cut is safe.

Dymmock turns back to Ransome, smiles sweetly.


I have a nephew.

Did I Show You The Dump Valve?


Craig and Jock, peers, are stood by Craig’s parked car.

CRAIG. So that’s a six stage paint job. Yeah with a double matte finish. So even if it gets chipped yeah it still stays even.

JOCK. Yeah?

CRAIG. Yeah because even a gloss finish fades after a couple of years but. With that it’s.

JOCK. Yeah.

CRAIG. They do it in Formula One conditions. It’s the same process. See that. They’re bucket seats. See how there’s that bit in the middle? The bit that comes up in between the legs? Mate?

JOCK. Yeah.

CRAIG. That’s because the torque’s so strong yeah. So strong that when you take corners you fuckin. There’s a danger of slidin off the seat. So That bit’s to keep you on the actual fuckin. You can take a corner in fourth mate.

JOCK. Yeah?

CRAIG. Serious mate. Did it last night. It’s mental. Yeah torque’s like 200 pounds a foot.

JOCK. What’s torque?

CRAIG. What’s torque?


CRAIG. Mate. Torque’s like. What keeps the car on the fucking road mate.

JOCK. Right.

CRAIG. Good one anyway. Means you can go fast and keep it stable.

JOCK. Thought that was traction.

CRAIG. Yeah it’s the same thing. But yeah those seats. Well you’ll see in a minute. Steel pedals, and the gear discs are all alloy. Six gears, which for a two wheel drive is.

Jock takes out his mobile phone and starts writing a text.

CRAIG. Crazy. Those alloys yeah. Six spoke twenty inch forged RAYS aluminium yeah.

Jock doesn’t look up from his phone.

JOCK. Sick.

CRAIG. That’s necessary. That’s not even a upgrade. They need that cos of the engine thrust and the six speed gear mechanism. Same reason why the exhaust pipes are chrome-tipped. People think it’s an accessory but the output’s too hot. Can’t hear the unit though, even at a cruise. Engine refinement is amazing. And even if you could, surround sounds’ got eleven speakers and a 1200watt sub. That’ll drown out anything.

JOCK. Nice. Sorry mate. Just finishing.

CRAIG. MP3 compatible as well. Got 30gig hard drive music storage. That’s like four times more than that.

Craig points to Jock’s mobile phone.

CRAIG. Bluetooth as well. Voice control.

JOCK. Yeah?

CRAIG. Yeah. When I called you last night, I didn’t even have to pick up my phone. I was in the cabin. Just dropped my mum off. Carbon fibre-finished dash. Individually-heated anti-steam mirrors. Dual climate control.

Jock’s phone starts ringing.

JOCK. Shit. Sorry mate.

He takes the call. Throughout his conversation, Craig just stands, looking at either him or the car.

JOCK. Dude I was just calling you. Yeah. Shit man where did you go last night? I literally turned round. You didn’t. You didn’t! That’s hilarious! Ah, I can’t wait to tell Kev, he’s gonna freak. Mate, he’s gonna find anyway! You think she’ll keep it a secret? That’s hilarious. We stayed. Only left about half eight this morning. Serious. Why do you think? We were all in a bad way. Benson literally couldn’t talk. We put him to bed in that room with all the penguins on the wall. Yeah bit weird, there was a wendy house in the corner. Nah it was good though. Yeah I think I will for a bit. Not gonna drink though. Mate I was so far gone last night. I’m still feeling it in a big way. No I mean obviously I’ll have a drink. But I’m not gonna, you know. I’m not going Prague, put it that way. Haha. I’m never going Prague.

Jock checks his watch.

JOCK. Well I’m meeting Matt in an hour. Said we’d get something to eat. Is he? What time? Oh, so you’re just gonna. Oh sweet. Oh so I might as well come straight there. I’ll drop him a text then. Just check you’re not lying to me as usual. Like when you said Vanessa was coming to Wales. You did. Yes you did!

Jock spins to see Craig waiting.

JOCK. Right mate I’d better go. Yeah I’ll drop him a text. Alright catch you in a bit. Cheers.

Jock hangs up.

JOCK. Sorry about that.

Craig shrugs shakes his head.

CRAIG. No worries. So err. So yeah. So you can control all that from the wheel. All that stuff I was saying.

JOCK. Yeah.

Jock starts writing a text on his phone.

CRAIG. There’s an eight inch LCD display built in. It’s got this easy-touch system supposed to be the most responsive touch screen available or whatever. So you can literally check the weather. Get traffic reports. Get like. Fuel gauge and stuff whilst also checking revs per second and all the usual shit. Play music through it. Everything.

JOCK. Cool.

CRAIG. Automatic xenon lights. They’re energy saving. Rain-sensing wipers. Rearview camera. Four wheel anti-lock breaking stem. Dual fork suspension.

JOCK. Sorry mate.

Jock finishes his text. Puts his phone away.

JOCK. Yeah. Awesome.

CRAIG. I mean the real point is the twin-turbo V8 with NOS adaptability. 0-60 in 2.5. That’s why you buy the car, really. All the rest. Just serving that basically. But mate I’ve not even scratched the surface.

JOCK. Serious.

CRAIG. There is so much tech goin on.

Jock nods.

CRAIG. So do you wanna go for a ride then?


CRAIG. Grab a drink or whatever. Could take you back home after if you like.

JOCK. Oh, no I’m.

CRAIG. It’s cool I’ll be going that way.

JOCK. No I’m not going home. I’m, er.

CRAIG. Oh. Fair enough.. Well we could.

JOCK. But round the block maybe? Couple of times?

CRAIG. Round the. Okay.

JOCK. Yeah that should.

Jock checks his watch.

JOCK. Yeah.

CRAIG. Cool.

JOCK. Ten minutes?

CRAIG. Whatever mate. All good for me.

JOCK. Great.

CRAIG. Alright. Get in then.



SALLY Is that a banana in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?

PHIL No, it’s a tumour.

SALLY Oh, you must be happy to see me then.

PHIL That’s right Doctor, I’m glad you could fit me in.

SALLY Well let’s have a look.

PHIL The tumour is on my penis, causing it to show as a bump underneath my trousers.

SALLY Oh. Perhaps that’s the bulge I initially mistook for a banana.

PHIL Also my penis is currently erect because I find you attractive.

SALLY I see. That may have been a contributing factor.

PHIL Possibly. Do you mind if I eat a banana whilst we wait for my tumescence to subside?

SALLY Ah. So you do have a banana in your pocket?

PHIL Yes, but it’s in my back pocket.

SALLY That’s where I first saw it.

PHIL Then how did you mistake it for my penis?

SALLY I’m not really a doctor. I’m a pervert.

PHIL Surely you still know where the penis is located on the human body?

SALLY No, I’m also an alien.

PHIL That’s odd, you opened this conversation with a very familiar human phrase.

SALLY Pure coincidence. It was a genuine question.

PHIL How confusing.

SALLY We’re here to take over your world. I’m afraid I’ll have to subject you to the some of the most hideous and painful torture techniques imaginable.

The real Sally enters and shoots Alien Sally.

Alien Sally drops dead.

PHIL Doctor! Am I glad to see you!

REAL SALLY I can see that. You’re disgusting!

*Big Play* Excellent Choice

Excellent Choice


A wine shop.

Peter stands rigid behind the counter. Samuel has entered. The two men stare at each other.

PETER: Hello.

SAMUEL: Hello.

PETER: Hello.


SAMUEL: Are you open?

PETER: Very open, yes. I hate secrets.

SAMUEL: I meant the shop.

Peter lets his eyes wander around the shop, as if he’s only just realised what it is.

SAMUEL: As in the wine shop. The thing we’re stood in.

PETER: Oh yes, that’s.


PETER: Come in.

SAMUEL: I am in.

PETER: Good. Stay there. Make yourself at home.

SAMUEL: Make myself at home?

PETER: Please.

SAMUEL: This is a wine shop.

PETER: No that’s true.

Samuel nods. Scans the shelves.

SAMUEL: I’ve been told this is the best in London.

PETER: Really? Who told you that? Was it Sean?

SAMUEL: I don’t think so.

PETER: Sean? Short guy. Huge beard. Pot belly.

SAMUEL: No, that wasn’t.

PETER: Irish. Probably wearing bright yellow trousers. Bit of a squint in his left eye.

SAMUEL: It wasn’t him.

PETER: Gammy knee. Spits a lot.

SAMUEL: Definitely someone else.

PETER: Are you sure it wasn’t Sean?

SAMUEL: Pretty sure.

PETER: Massive red face. No? Perhaps it was someone else.

SAMUEL: I think it was.

PETER: Very weird. Were they making fun of me?


PETER: Poking fun were they? Being sarcastic?


PETER: That would’ve hurt my feelings.

SAMUEL: I think they were genuine.

PETER: Good. That’s. Good.

SAMUEL: Seems like a well kept secret. I walked up and down this road twice before I found you. It’s almost as if you don’t want to be noticed.

PETER: I’m glad you persisted.

Samuel smiles. Browses the wines.

PETER: Anything in particular I can help you with?

Samuel takes a dramatic step forward.

SAMUEL: I would like to buy some wine.

He retreats back to his original position.


PETER: I’m so sorry we’re closed.

SAMUEL: Pardon?

PETER: We’re not selling wine today we’re closed.

SAMUEL: No you’re not.

PETER: There’s another place down the road.

SAMUEL: You just said.

PETER: Perfectly passable selection.

SAMUEL: You said you’re open.

PETER: A range to suit every price bracket. Wines from all over the world etc.

SAMUEL: Stop it!

Peter looks at his watch.

PETER: I suppose I could squeeze in one more customer. How can I help?

SAMUEL: I’m looking for a fine wine.

PETER: This is a fine wine shop. All my wines are fine. Some are excellent, but they’re all fine.

Samuel takes one from the shelf.

SAMUEL: How about this one?

Peter shrugs.

PETER: It’s fine.

SAMUEL: I think we’ve misunderstood one another. I’m looking for a particularly fine wine.

PETER: Which one?

SAMUEL: I was hoping you could tell me.

PETER: I see, you need an expert’s opinion. Well, what’s the occasion?

SAMUEL: Yes, it’s not quite as simple as that .

PETER: It’s a girl, isn’t it?

SAMUEL: In a way.

PETER: Of course. Fine wine for a fine lady. How much are you looking to.

SAMUEL: How much?

PETER: On the wine, what’s your price range?

SAMUEL: Well, I really don’t.

PETER: I can’t suggest a wine unless I know how much you’re prepared to spend.

SAMUEL: Right. I. £5 million. Top end.

PETER: I see.


PETER: Sorry, how much wine were you hoping to buy?

SAMUEL: Just the one bottle.

PETER: Just the one. I see. Bit of a wine fan are you?

SAMUEL: Getting there.

PETER: It’s a rare student that has that kind of capital to throw around. You must really, really love wine.

SAMUEL: I do. I really do.

PETER: You could buy an entire vineyard for that.

SAMUEL: I only need the one bottle.

PETER: What’s your favourite?

SAMUEL: Pardon?

PETER: Your favourite wine?




SAMUEL: And sometimes white. With fish.

PETER: And what’s your opinion on the 1964 Chateau Neuf Du Pape?


SAMUEL: It’s nice.

PETER smiles.

PETER: Yes, it’s generally considered to be. Nice. Of course with your budget you could use that as mouthwash. You could bathe in it.

SAMUEL: People do that, do they?

PETER: There are other ways of impressing a girl you know.

SAMUEL: I’m not trying to impress her.

PETER: £5 million could go very far in wooing a lady.

SAMUEL: No, that’s not.

PETER: Right, trying to keep her then.

SAMUEL: Something like that.

PETER: Have you tried bringing food into the bedroom? Spice things up a bit?

SAMUEL: No, that’s not.

PETER: I once baked a flan on my wife’s chest. The scarring was horrific but the flan was quite delicious.


PETER: Summer fruit.

Samuel turns, browses the shelves.

SAMUEL: How long have you owned this place?

PETER: Oh, longer than I care to remember. Can’t say I was much of a wine drinker when I took it over. Learnt on the job.

SAMUEL: Family business, is it?

PETER: Something like that. I was coerced a little bit, to be honest.

SAMUEL: Who by?

PETER: Who do you think? My wife. Women, eh? Can’t live with them.


PETER: I hope she’s worth it.

SAMUEL: She is.

PETER: She must know a thing or two about the grapes as well, if she’s going to appreciate your gift.

SAMUEL: She’ll appreciate it.

Samuel looks to the shelves.

PETER: I’m afraid those wines will do you no good. The best we offer on the shop floor barely brooch the price of a second hand Porche.

SAMUEL: Is that so?

PETER: That’s a type of car.

SAMUEL: Yes, I know what a Porche is.

PETER: They’re pedestrian by your standards. Toilet water. Fit for heads of state, Arabian princes, wealthy collectors the world over, but for a man of your means, absolute dog piss.

SAMUEL: Perhaps you can show me some wines of a suitable calibre then.

PETER: Certainly sir. I keep them out back.

He does not move.

PETER: Think very hard about what you’re doing.

SAMUEL: I have.

PETER: Very well sir.

He does not move.

PETER: I’ll introduce you to some bottles slightly lower down the spectrum to start with, in case you find something that suits your needs without committing to such a massive financial outlay.

SAMUEL: That’s really not necessary.

PETER: I insist. There’s every chance you’ll be happy with just a bloody good red. Or perhaps a white if you’re having it with fish.

SAMUEL: Don’t waste your time.

PETER: I certainly wouldn’t want to be accused of fleecing you.

SAMUEL: Advise me well and you won’t be.

PETER: Value for money is a crucial part of customer satisfaction. It wouldn’t do me any good at all to oversell some jumped up beaujolais to a bewildered young pup with more money than he clearly knows what to do with.

SAMUEL: I know what to do with it. I only hope you do too.

PETER: What do you do for a living, if you don’t mind me asking?

SAMUEL: I’m an engineer.

PETER: An engineer, you’d want a bold, well constructed wine with discrete flavours that traverse the tongue one at a time. Like a ‘97 Grenache. Great with steak. Nothing mellow or flowery like a new world Pinot Noir. Yes, something dense and layered. The same sensation with every mouthful, perhaps a Zinfandel. If I fobbed you off with a Rioja, you’d be in a right state. It jumps all over the place like a maniac. Throws flavours at you from all angles. Never know where you stand. If you were, I don’t know, a poet for example, then that’d be right up your street. Then again if you were a poet you probably wouldn’t have £5 million to spend on a single bottle of wine. For the sake of a girl.

SAMUEL: I appreciate your consideration, but try not to over-think it. I’m prepared – in fact I’m quite keen – to spend up to my limit. And I’m sure if you let your instinct take over, you’d know exactly the kind of drink I’d like to buy.

Peter immediately produces a bottle of wine from under the counter.

PETER: Yours for a mere £500,000.

SAMUEL: What is it?

PETER: A very special wine. Only two made in the world, and this is the last.

SAMUEL: So it’s rare.

PETER: As unicorn faeces.

SAMUEL: What is it?

PETER: Unicorn faeces.


PETER: That was a joke. It’s nowhere near as spectacular.

SAMUEL: So what is it?

PETER: The contents of Princess Diana’s stomach on the night she died. Pulped, sieved and fermented.

SAMUEL: What’s it like?

PETER: Tart. Laced with cocaine and vastly overrated.

SAMUEL: I see.

PETER: It’s deceptive, inconsistent. Bit of a minefield really. It’s the kind of bottle you keep behind glass in a foyer. Dinner party fodder. Six of us shared the last bottle, all experts, at a convention in Paris. We supped whilst the crowds wept. It was a bit young then, might have matured in the intervening years.

SAMUEL: It’s not what I had in mind.

PETER: It’s a crowd pleaser. Provided you never open it.

SAMUEL: People don’t like to be reminded of tragedy, especially not through wine.

PETER: I couldn’t agree more.

SAMUEL: Not really the right price bracket either.

PETER: If this baby was quaffable then it would be a completely different story. Price would go through the roof. Perhaps it is. Perhaps its silently become the most valuable wine in the world. We’ll never know. And if we ever do find out it’ll be too late.

Peter stares at the bottle, then puts it back behind the counter.

PETER: I’m afraid that may be the most interesting wine we have in stock. There are better wines, sure. But they can all be placed on a chart, or read up in a book. A neat little value on them based on a quantifiable matrix of region, topography, climate, year, volume in circulation…tiresome stuff if you ask me. The best wines have good stories to go with them. Nothing impresses a girl like a wine with a good story.

SAMUEL: I’m not trying to impress a girl.

PETER: I heartily suggest you try the food in the bedroom thing. It really adds another dimension to proceedings.

SAMUEL: I don’t mean to sound ungrateful, or… but I have come here to buy wine, I’d appreciate it if you respect that fact. I’m offering you a lot of money and I expect your most precious bottle. It really is as simple as that.

PETER: Just want to be sure we’re making the right choice, sir. All part of the service.

SAMUEL: Please don’t call me sir.

PETER: What’s your name?

SAMUEL: Samuel.

PETER: Samuel. Very pleasant. Don’t like the contraction?

SAMUEL: I prefer to keep it gender specific.

PETER: Good choice. Avoid any potential for confusion. Are you married, Samuel?

SAMUEL: No. No I’m not married.

PETER: Why not?

SAMUEL: Marriage either ends in divorce or death. I never fancied either.

Peter laughs.

PETER: Gosh that is clever.

The two men watch each other.

PETER: I’m Peter by the way. And I would strongly endorse marriage, if pushed. I agree, it never ends well but they say the journey is the destination.

SAMUEL: Depends on where you’re going.

PETER: Let me tell you a joke.

SAMUEL: Really? I’m actually a little short on.

PETER: A man and his wife have been married for thirty years. Every year at three o’clock on the morning of their anniversary, he goes downstairs into the kitchen and takes out their honeymoon pictures. He looks over them and cries himself to sleep right there at the table. After thirty years of finding her husband asleep at the kitchen table on the morning of their anniversary, holding their honeymoon photographs, she finally asks him, ‘why? Why do you do this every year? Why so early in the morning? Why our honeymoon photos?’ And he says— have you heard this before?


PETER: Oh, that’s annoying. I was hoping you’d remember the punchline.

SAMUEL: All this talk about customer service and you’re not actually very good at selling wine are you?

PETER: You’re getting impatient aren’t you?


PETER: It really shows. It’s not healthy Samuel. Not in this game anyway.

Peter exits. Samuel browses.

Peter re-enters with a wooden box. He places it on the counter.

PETER: Look at this. Any idea what it is?

SAMUEL: It’s a wooden box.

PETER: Ah, but this is no ordinary wooden box. Take a look inside.

At Peter’s beckon, Samuel opens the box and looks in.

SAMUEL: It’s a bottle of wine.

PETER: Ah, but that’s no ordinary bottle of wine…

Peter leans in to pick up the bottle.

PETER: No hang on, that is an ordinary bottle of wine.

He inspects the box.

PETER: Come to think go it, that’s an ordinary wooden box as well. Oh dear.

Peter takes the box and exits.

Samuel produces a pistol. Holds it, inspects it. Puts it away.

Peter returns with an identical box.

PETER: I must apologise. My mind is not my friend. I once forgot an entire decade.

SAMUEL: An entire decade?

PETER: I think so.

SAMUEL: Which one?

PETER: Can’t remember. I think it straddled the ‘70s and ‘80s. I have a vague awareness of being in Chicago. I’m also paying a substantial monthly stipend to someone called Jubella Truelove.

SAMUEL: And the wine?

Peter is lost in his thoughts.

PETER: I think I was a jazz pianist at one point.

SAMUEL: The wine, Peter.

PETER: Of course, excuse me. Do you know what this is?

SAMUEL: That’s no ordinary wooden box.

PETER: Quite right. And do you know what’s in the box?

SAMUEL: No ordinary wine. PETER: Ah, but it’s no ordinary wine — oh, you said that. No ordinary wine.

SAMUEL: How much does it cost?

PETER: Estimated value £2.3 Million. Per bottle. It’s one of the few wines we sell by the glass.

SAMUEL: It’s not the wine for me.

PETER: You don’t know what it is yet.

SAMUEL: How old is it?

PETER: Nearly a thousand years.

SAMUEL: It’s not the wine I’m looking for.

PETER: I assure you it’s worth consideration.

SAMUEL: I don’t care, I don’t. Listen, I’m very short of time and I really don’t have an evening to spend hearing you prattle on about… I have the money waiting nearby. In cash. Now can we please stop flirting and get down to business?

PETER: This one’s from Genghis Khan.

SAMUEL: I have a pistol. I have a gun. In my pocket.


PETER: And I thought you were just happy to see me.

SAMUEL: What will happen if I use it?

PETER: I think we both know what’ll happen if you use it.

SAMUEL: Tell me more about your wife. How old was she when she died?

PETER: Sixty-two.

SAMUEL: And when was it?

PETER: I try not to think about it nowadays. It makes me terribly sad.

SAMUEL: How long ago was it?

PETER: Sometimes, I’m so lonely I can’t even think properly. Sometimes I get so lonely I make up stories to keep myself entertained.

SAMUEL: Stories?

PETER: Stories. People. Anything. I really don’t get much custom. I have to keep myself going somehow.

SAMUEL: What stories?

PETER: Anything.

SAMUEL: Made up?

PETER: I’ve been alive for such a long time, my memories and fantasies have all blurred into one. I had a wife, I’m sure of that. She died what feels like decades ago. I had a daughter, I’m sure of that, too.

SAMUEL: And when did she die?

PETER: Feels like centuries ago.

SAMUEL: How did they die?

Samuel struggles not to cry.

SAMUEL: What would you say to your daughter if she were here right now? If she was right here with you now? What would you say to her?

PETER: Die zombie scum.

Samuel laughs through the tears.

SAMUEL: Tell me about the wine.

PETER: Oh, it’s a long story. Which I will now tell. Mongolia. A mass grave at the foot of Burkhan Khaldun mountain, just by the Onon river. An archeological dig in the 1930s unearths 24 identical bottles of ancient wine. The burial site of Ghengis Kahn. Legend has it that his kinsmen were concerned that should the news of his death be made public, his armies would riot and the empire crumble. They were so concerned, in fact, that he was buried in an unmarked grave, and any living thing that witnessed the funeral escort was killed on sight and given an unmarked burial or their own. According to the legend, they were killed by one sip of this wine.

SAMUEL: It’s poisoned.

PETER: Apparently so. But no active ingredient has been found. No traces of known toxins from our age or theirs. On paper it’s completely innocuous. But on the palette…

SAMUEL: It’s deadly.

PETER: Not just deadly. Untraceable.

SAMUEL: So what is it?

Peter shrugs.

PETER: An ancient curse. Some undiscovered element. Perhaps it’s all folklore. Maybe I just made it all up.

SAMUEL: Why so expensive then?

PETER: Plenty of people would like to get away with murder. Willing to pay for it as well. You understand.

SAMUEL: Well, yes. I mean.

PETER: Ah, so you are interested after all. Would you like to sample it first?

SAMUEL: No thanks.

PETER: I couldn’t have you purchase a wine without trying it. It’s all part of the service. Please.

Peter takes a glass from below the counter and uncorks the wine. He pours a glass and swirls, holding it just under his nose.

PETER: Deep and musty on the nose. Dirt and snuffed candles, like a crypt. I’m also getting almonds, weirdly. Perhaps I didn’t rinse the glass out properly. Sniff?

SAMUEL: Really, I’m fine.

PETER: I have to say, I’m at a complete loss. I know you like red, and occasionally white. And I know you find the legendary and multi-award winning ‘64 Chateau Neuf Du Pape quite nice. But you really will have to give me something more to work with here.

Samuel takes out the gun.

SAMUEL: I hear AD33 was a vintage year.

Peter smiles.

PETER: Who sent you?

SAMUEL: You know who.

PETER: Tell them they’ve made a mistake.

Samuel raises the gun.

SAMUEL: I can’t do that.

PETER: If you shoot that thing then we both lose.

SAMUEL: I don’t believe you.

PETER: And you’re going to take the trouble of finding out?

Samuel wavers with the gun.

SAMUEL: Please help me.

PETER: I’m just an old man with a wine shop. Just trying to get by from one day to the next. Entertaining myself with my stories, my memories, and the memories of my stories.

SAMUEL: They have my child. They have.

Samuel fights back tears.

PETER: Samuel. You’ve got yourself in a right mess, haven’t you?

SAMUEL: They said they could help me.

PETER: Course they did. Why have they sent you?

SAMUEL: Because I’m not one of them. I don’t know anything about them. Or you. Or wine. They say you’d recognise them if they came, give them another fake bottle.

PETER: It’s true.

SAMUEL: You know how they test its authenticity, don’t you?


SAMUEL: They’re not prepared to risk the life of another clergyman. So they. So they.

PETER: How old is she?


Peter closes his eyes.

PETER: Wait there.

Peter exits.

He returns with an old, oddly shaped bottle. He puts it on the counter.

SAMUEL: Is it true? It’s not one of your stories?

PETER: That depends on what you’ve heard.

SAMUEL: The wine contains…


SAMUEL: The. The active ingredient has powers to.

PETER: What have you heard Samuel?

SAMUEL: That the wine contains the semen of Jesus Christ.

PETER: Legend has it.

SAMUEL: And it’s properties. If I were to.

Samuel waves the gun.

PETER: What makes you think I’ve tried it?

SAMUEL: You want me to believe you’ve never drunk it?

PETER: I want you to think very hard about what you believe right now.

Peter produces a glass and pours out some wine. It stands identical to the Genghis Khan wine next to it.

SAMUEL: Please, they’re going to kill her. That’s what they’ll do you know. Mix it with poison and make her drink it. I can’t afford to fail.

PETER: If only there were an easier way.

SAMUEL: I have to believe this is true. Please if you know the truth, I need to know.

PETER: Yes, it is a bit of a stretch, isn’t it? This is my blood, take this and drink it, etc. They sanitised it for the crowds. Made it slightly more palatable, even though the idea of drinking blood is a little more macabre. Still, I suppose no one needs the image of their Lord and saviour wanking into a cup at the dinner table like some drunken schoolboy.

Peter shrugs.

PETER: Mixed in with twelve bottles of wine. Divided, diluted, denounced, defamed over the centuries. With a mere handful, if that, surviving almost intact. Still potent. Still divine.

SAMUEL: Let me drink it.

PETER: Join me.

Samuel steps forward.

Peter switches the light off. For a moment, they are cast in darkness.

SAMUEL: Wh. what are you doing? Why did you do that? Put the light back on.

Peter turns the light back on. The glasses have been disturbed.

SAMUEL notices as he approaches the counter.

SAMUEL: What did you do?

PETER: There has to be an element of fate involved.

SAMUEL: What do you mean fate? What do you mean?

PETER: This kind of power is too big to rest in the hands of one man. I am protector of the wine, I have to do my duty.

SAMUEL: Your duty?

PETER: Safeguard the wine at all costs, including my own life.

SAMUEL: But you can’t die. You’ve drunk the wine before. Of course you have!

PETER: It’s a possibility.

SAMUEL: My daughter is in a room somewhere, terrified, alone, and facing death if I can’t save her. And you turn it into a game?

PETER: But you win either way. You either choose the right wine, in which case you save your daughter’s life, or you choose the wrong wine, in which case the sweet release of death delivers you from any sense of loss, or pain, or any other trivialities of human existence.

SAMUEL: You’re prepared to have blood on your hands. Every time someone comes you’re prepared to destroy a life.

PETER: That’s my curse. That’s what I have to live with. Every day. S

AMUEL: And your wife. Your own daughter.

PETER: I miss them dearly.

SAMUEL: You’re inhuman.

PETER: And what’s the alternative? An immortal cabal with more wealth and power than you can possibly imagine. The iron fist of dogma rendered legitimate by a magic potion. A vast, unending holy war.

SAMUEL: I don’t believe it. I really, truly do not believe it.

PETER: That’s a shame, because it’s time to make a decision.

SAMUEL: Just give me the bottle!

PETER: If we’re both still standing in a few minutes then we can complete our transaction.

SAMUEL: And what if you’re the one that’s dead?

PETER: Then you’ll be left with the right wine. You’d just better hope I never got round to drinking it.

SAMUEL: Please. Peter please. I’m not one of them. I don’t know what they did to you but I’m not one of them. I’ve just made some very bad decisions in my life and. And I need to rectify that. I just need a chance to make it better.

PETER: Samuel.

SAMUEL: Help me. Help me.

PETER: I can’t change the rules. They’re not mine to change.

SAMUEL: Think about what you’re doing. Just think about what this means to me.

PETER: I know what it means to you. And I wish you the best of luck.

Samuel shakes his head.

PETER: It’s time Samuel.

Peter nods to the two glasses.

Samuel steps forward slowly. He stares at the two glasses, then picks one up.

Peter smiles.

He takes up the other glass and clinks it with Samuel’s.

PETER: Excellent choice.

They drink. 

The Interrogation Scene

A meeting room, Scotland Yard.

Detective Inspector Rex stands staring out the window, chain smoking.

Detective Inspector Harris sits at a table, staring at the floor.

HARRIS He won’t talk.

REX He’ll talk.

HARRIS I’m telling you he won’t talk.

REX He’ll talk.

HARRIS You go in there then. You make him blab. Cos I’ve been at it three hours and he hasn’t so much as opened his mouth to bloody breathe.

Rex takes a long drag.

REX Have you asked him?

HARRIS Asked him what?

REX Who killed Constable Bailey?

HARRIS Course I’ve asked him. What the hell do you think I’ve been doing?

REX I mean, have you asked him?

HARRIS I just said yes didn’t I? You heard. You’ve been watching.

REX I never saw you ask a question. I saw you bark a statement.

HARRIS Bark a statement?

REX You announced the words. You leaned into his face and offered the statement. Who. Killed. Constable. Bailey. You didn’t ask him, like you expected an answer. Not like you ask someone about their holidays, or what they had for tea last night. You played your role. And he played his.

HARRIS So what do you want me to do?

REX I want you to go in there and inquire of him the information you need. And I want you to stand there and expect an answer.

Harris rubs his face.

REX Well go on then.

Harris leaves.

Rex smokes.

Harris re-enters. He sits down.

REX Well?

HARRIS I asked him.

REX And?

HARRIS He gave me an answer alright. Says Billy Dexter did it. Lured him to the warehouse on a false lead then stabbed him.

REX He’s lying.


REX You think he’d give in that easily? There’s more. I can smell it.

HARRIS We’ve got a name. What more do you want?

REX I want the truth.

HARRIS He told me the truth!

REX Did you look him in the eye?

HARRIS Oh for fuck.

REX When you asked him, did you look him in the eye?

HARRIS I can’t remember.

REX You wanna get the truth? You gotta hold a man’s gaze. Stare deep into his soul. Connect with him. Only man who can tell a lie under that kind of scrutiny is a psychopath. And if we know one thing from his file, it’s that he’s not a psychopath.

HARRIS So now what?

REX I want you to go back in there.

HARRIS You’ve gotta be kidding. He said Billy Dexter. We can sew this up.

REX Why did you join the force, Pete? Was it to clog up our nation’s prisons with inveterate cannon fodder like Billy Dexter, whilst the real criminals wander free? Or was it to bring justice to our streets?

HARRIS Think it was the management opportunities.

REX Get in there, look our boy in the eye, and get me the truth.

Harris wearily gets up, exits.

Rex smokes.

Harris re-enters. Sits down, dazed.

HARRIS It’s Duke Spencer. He ordered the hit on Bailey. Paid good money to make it look like a stab and grab.

REX And Billy Dexter?

HARRIS A patsy. Paid off to take the fall. Eight grand for every year of time served.

REX Poor old Billy.

HARRIS This is huge Rex. We can bring down the entire organisation on a testimony like that. Duke Spencer’s been at the head of the family for twenty years. If he gets a stretch, it’ll put the entire city trafficking trade on its knees.

REX Nope.

HARRIS What do you mean nope?

REX It’s useless.

HARRIS Useless? This is a promotion. It’s our ticket to early retirement!

REX There’s more to it. A lot more. I can feel it.

HARRIS How?! How can there be more to it? It goes right to the top for Christ’s sake.

REX When you asked him, and looked into his eyes, did you make him feel loved?


HARRIS I beg your pardon?

REX The only way to draw out the truth – and I mean the real truth, rather than not lies – is to make them feel like it really matters. Like you care so deeply about their behaviour that for them to act in anything other than perfect decency will not only let you down, it’ll break your little heart.

HARRIS I can’t do this any more.

REX You think he’s ever been loved? Look at the file. No siblings. Foster care. Two failed marriages. Three estranged kids. Six business partners in ten years. You really think he’s ever felt true love? Do you, Harris, believe that the man through there has ever felt that his actions have personal consequences on any other living being? I need you to depend on him. I need you to care for him. Will him to do the right thing. Weep for his soul. Beg for his attention. Pete, I need you to love him.

HARRIS Can I say anything at this point to.

REX Don’t make me pull rank.

Harris drags himself out of the room.

REX smokes.

Harris re-enters, beleaguered. He collapses onto a chair, shaking his head in disbelief.

HARRIS I loved that man more that my own wife. I did things to him I never thought I could do to anyone.

REX And?

HARRIS Duke Spencer’s a cog, Rex. A cog in a very large machine. And driving that machine is Chief Superintendent Shepherd. He manages a network of bribery, kickbacks, racketeering, blind-eyes, and extortion that touches every layer of Scotland Yard. From the beat lads to top brass, Shepherd has puppets at every level. He’s got all the crime lords in his pocket. He’s running the entire game from his office. From this building, Rex. That boy in there has enough evidence to put every man who’s ever worn a uniform on the dock. The apple’s rotten Rex. Rotten to the core. Even our pension fund and bonus schemes are built entirely on dirty money. The filthiest money there is. When this comes out, it’ll threaten to destroy the not only infrastructure of the British Force, but the very concept of policing in a democratic, free market economy.

A long beat. Rex smokes.

REX Shall we arrest Billy Dexter?

HARRIS Yeah alright.

Fabergé Egg

Peter stands with his young son Jake in a viewing room. On the table between them is an open deposit box containing Fabergé’s 15th Anniversary egg.

Jake leans in to get a close look at the egg. He reaches out to touch it.

PETER Don’t touch it. Jake don’t touch it.

Peter gently moves Jake’s arm away.

PETER It’s very valuable. It’s probably the most valuable thing you’ve ever seen in real life.

JAKE How much does it cost?

PETER Many thousands of pounds. That’s why we’re here. Daddy’s come to sell it.

JAKE Is it yours?

PETER I don’t own it. It’s my job to sell it on my boss’ behalf.

JAKE Behalf.

PETER That means doing something for someone else.

JAKE Oscar has an egg.

PETER I don’t think it’s an egg like this though is it?

JAKE Yeah. His dad’s got one.

PETER I’m telling you it’s not an egg like this one. This is a very rare egg.

Jake reaches out to touch it.

PETER You mustn’t grab at it. You’ve touched it once already. That’s enough. It’s very delicate. This is a real privilege now. Only a few people will ever get as close as you are to an object like this.

JAKE Privilege.

PETER That’s when a good thing happens to you that doesn’t happen to everyone else. Your daddy trusts you and loves you very much. That’s why I wanted to bring you along.

JAKE Mum said we were going skiing.

PETER Well unfortunately we can’t today.

JAKE It’s my birthday.

PETER We can go skiing another time.

Jake loses interest. He slips of his seat and hops around the room.

PETER It won’t take long. Then afterwards we can go to McDonalds. I’m sorry we never made it to the ski slope but this lady’s travelled a long long way to come and buy this egg. So it’s important I was ready for her when she arrived.

JAKE Is she here yet?

PETER She will be very shortly.

JAKE I want to go.

PETER We can go soon.

JAKE I want to go skiing.

PETER We can’t go skiing today. But you’ve got to see a very precious work of art. In a way that’s a much better present. You’ll be talking about this birthday for many years. Jake are you listening?

Jake hops back over to his seat and stares intently at the egg.

JAKE Can I touch it?

PETER No you mustn’t touch it. It doesn’t belong to us.

JAKE Then afterwards we can go to McDonalds.

PETER Yes. Just a few more minutes now.

Jake slumps onto the table, fidgety.

An intercom buzzes.

PETER That’s her. Okay sunshine. I’m putting this away now. You just sit very still for a moment and then we can go. Okay?

Peter closes the deposit box.


JAKE Okay.

PETER Good boy.

The intercom buzzes again. Peter exits to an adjacent room where Ms. Poltava is waiting.

Peter greets Ms. Poltava.

PETER Lovely to meet you.

MS. POLTAVA Yes, very much. Thank you for last minute arrangements.

PETER That’s absolutely no problem. Obviously this has been in the offing for several weeks. We’re absolutely thrilled to seal the deal. So to speak.

MS. POLTAVA I am also. My family are very much looking forward to my return.

Meanwhile in the other room. Jake leans in and opens the box. He stares at the egg.

PETER As discussed, it’s the Fifteenth Anniversary Egg that’s become available.

MS. POLTAVA Yes. We are very happy with this.

PETER It’s a beautiful piece.

MS. POLTAVA Yes. We like very much. Is our favourite.

In the other room, Jake very cautiously places his fingers on the egg.

PETER It’s gold construction, inlaid with translucent green and opalescent oyster enamel leafage. Finished with diamonds and rock crystal. The miniature scenes and portaits are watercolour on ivory.

MS. POLTAVA The photographs may not do it justice I feel.

PETER That is so true Ms. Poltova. The thing itself will take your breath away.

Jake holds the egg. After a moment he lifts it out of the box with all the reverence his father instilled in it.

PETER It’s divided into eighteen panels, each containing a miniature by court painter Vasili Zuiev. And each framed by diamond-set green enamel ribbons over 24 carat red gold.

Jake holds the egg very close to his face. He smells it. Gently licks it. Presses it against his cheek.

PETER Seven oval portraits depict members of the imperial family, whilst nine larger panels offer scenes from the life of Tsar Nicholas II. The top of the egg is inscribed with the imperial monogram of Alexandra Fyodorovna, below a table diamond with a crystal border.

Jake launches the egg against the wall. It shatters. He freezes. Unsure what to do next.

PETER The portaits are exquisitely detailed, and set against a pearl and guilloche background. Of course they’re added an extra poignancy by the tragic events that were to follow just two years later. It really has become a sacred historical relic in its own right. A living document as well as an awe-inspiring piece of jewellery.

MS. POLTAVA Yes. We go see?

PETER Of course you’ve read all this I’m sure.

MS. POLTAVA Please. My time is not. Uh. Available much.

PETER Yes. Indeed. Do accept my apologies. I won’t keep you any longer.

MS. POLTOVA We go through now?

PETER No you take a seat. I’ll bring it to you. Do sit down.

MS. POLTOVA Yes. Okay.

She sits.

Meanwhile Jake panics. He sweeps the shattered egg into the corner of the room with his foot.

PETER I trust Mr. Lardes clarified the terms of transaction with your.

MS. POLTOVA Yes all is clear. Please.

PETER Very well. Then without further ado.

Peter enters the room with Jake and the broken egg.

He moves over to the box and sees it’s empty.

PETER Where is it? Jake where’s the egg?

He looks at his son, who stands rigid.

PETER Jake what have you done with the egg?


PETER If you’re playing a game, it stops now. Where is the egg?

Jake shakes his head slightly.

PETER I won’t ask you again. You’re to return daddy’s item immediately. This is not funny. I told you it was very precious and it’s not to be played with. You return it this instant or you’ll find yourself in some very serious trouble. Do you understand?

Jake just stares.

PETER Please Jake. Don’t make me ask you again.

Ms. Poltova enters.

MS. POLTOVA Everything is okay? I hear noises and you delay in bringing the egg.

Peter and Jake stare at each other. Jake has tears streaming down his face.

MS. POLTOVA You never mention there is a boy. Why do you have a boy here? Please is there a problem?

Jake ever so slightly shakes his head at his father.


PETER I’m dreadfully sorry, Ms. Poltova. There seems to have been some terrible. Error. A misommunication. See, my assistant was supposed to leave me the keys to the box before she left for the weekend. Unfortunately she appears to have fogotten.

MS. POLTOVA You do not have keys to box?

PETER I really am awfully sorry for the inconvenience.

MS. POLTOVA I cannot take egg?

PETER Not today, regretfully.

MS. POLTOVA Then we call Mr. Lardes?

PETER Mr. Lardes is in Switzerland. At a wedding. I’m afraid there’s nothing we can do. My assistant Lucy. She’s having a rather hard time of it at the moment. She has a lot on her mind. With everything going on she must’ve clean forgot to leave me the keys.

MS. POLTOVA This is not good. I travel a long way to secure for my family.

PETER What time does your flight leave tomorrow?

MS. POLTOVA I think 4pm.

PETER I can assure you I’ll have the whole thing ironed out by then. We’ll call you at the hotel when the piece is ready for collection.

MS. POLTOVA This is not what I expect from Mr. Lardes.

Peter turns to Ms. Poltova for the first time.

PETER Again I apologise. Why don’t you wait in the lounge and we’ll call for a driver?

MS. POLTOVA It seems I don’t have the choice.

Ms. Poltova exits, shaking her head.


Peter holds his arms open. Jake runs in for a hug.

Le Diable

A train carriage.

Agent Marshall sits opposite Emerald. They are alone.

EMERALD What did you do when you arrived?

MARSHALL I went for a walk around the town.


MARSHALL Down the main street.

EMERALD The main street?

MARSHALL Le Rue St. Vincent

EMERALD How far did you walk?

MARSHALL As far as the local aquatics museum.


MARSHALL Unfortunately the main exhibition was closed due to maintenance so I went and had a coffee in the neighbouring cafe. Espresso.

EMERALD Excellent. Then what?

MARSHALL I wandered over to a local market. I’d heard they take place every Thursday and Saturday.

EMERALD Did you buy anything?

MARSHALL Yes. A cheese.

EMERALD Which one?

MARSHALL It was a Gloucester.

EMERALD In northern France?

MARSHAL It was a Gruyere.


MARSHALL It came wrapped in wax paper by hand and sealed with the customary wax stamp of the cheesemonger.

EMERALD What was the stamp?

MARSHALL Two lions. Eating cheese?

EMERALD Marshall.

MARSHALL It was two lions climbing a pear tree. The town is renowned for having two fortified naval ports and for its succulent juicy pears. The lions wore crowns to indicate that the local grocers collective was once hired by Royal Appointment under King Charles II.

EMERALD Good. Very good. Did you meet anyone in town?

MARSHALL Yes. A girl. 21. She was German. A student on holiday. We shared a taxi back from town. It was late afternoon and there weren’t many taxis. Plus it looked like it might rain.


MARSHALL No, it hasn’t rained in the region for 61 days. She said she was travelling to get over a relationship. Her ex boyfriend is studying furniture design in Dusseldorf. They’d been together for three years but he chose to call an end to it in order to concentrate on his studies. She was an English student and had recently decided to move to London for her final year. She has a cousin who lives in Tufnell Park. They’re not that close but the cousin owes her family a favour after his mother had a nervous breakdown when he was young and he was taken in by Elise’s family along with his two sisters.


MARSHALL Elise. That’s her name. They stayed with Elise’s family for six months before social services could relocate them. Now he’s a London resident and has extended an invite of hospitality to her. She plans to live there for three months, or until she secures work teaching English and can afford her own rent. But not before her Interrailing pass has expired, which it does in five weeks. She was staying at the Place De Lise Hotel about twenty minutes’ drive out of town.

EMERALD Did you stay there with her?

MARSHALL I was tempted but unfortunately she’s not real.

Emerald raises her eyebrows.

MARSHALL When I arrived back at my own hotel I ordered room service. Seared calf’s liver with dauphinoise potatoes and a fennel jus. Followed by fruit salad. Plus a large glass of 2008 Sancerre and a bottle of sparkling mineral water. I studied maps of the local area and read the newspaper. I watched a current affairs programme, much of which I didn’t understand, checked my emails and went to bed. I was asleep by 11.20 and spoke to no-one save the hotel staff all evening.

EMERALD And in the morning?

MARSHALL Are you serious?


MARSHALL Continental breakfast.

EMERALD Consisting of?

MARSHALL One croissant with apricot jam. Two cups of coffee.

EMERALD That’s it?

MARSHALL And a cigarette. I wasn’t hungry. I finished at 8.10am. Returned to my room. Packed. Checked out 8.30. Took a taxi to the train station. Passed the old town hall on the way. Driver told me it had been decommissioned six years ago and all departments had been moved to a new building by a local architect who’d recently enjoyed international success. His name escapes me. There was a petition to keep the old building in use but the change went ahead nonetheless.

EMERALD And you understood all that?

MARSHALL I’d already read the story in a tourism pamphlet the previous day. Certain keywords tipped me off that he was offering the same anecdote.



MARSHALL I pissed several times and passed solids just once.

EMERALD Grow up Marshall.

MARSHALL Due respect Em. I’ve been doing this longer than you.

EMERALD Long enough to skip prep?

MARSHALL Long enough to know what I’m doing.

EMERALD You’ve never dealt with him.

MARSHALL I’ve dealt with similar.

EMERALD No you haven’t.

MARSHALL He’s a warlord. They’re all the same.

EMERALD No. They don’t all have Asperger’s. And before you ask, yes, it makes a difference.

MARSHALL They’re all crazy.

EMERALD You think this is ridiculous? This is nothing. We’ve barely started. You know who we sent in before you?


EMERALD Agent Heaver. Yes. Word is he claimed to have taken a local bus route that had stopped running the month prior to his arrival.

MARSHALL I thought you lost comms with him?

EMERALD We did, right then. Two days later we received his hands in the post.


EMERALD It’s prudent to assume he knows everything about you before you walk into the room.

MARSHALL That I’m an agent?

EMERALD Preferably everything but that.

Emerald hands Marshall a bulky newspaper.

EMERALD You’ll be armed with this and this only.

Marshall takes a peek.

MARSHALL Point four five Beretta.

EMERALD Which you will volunteer. Volunteer, Marshall, to one of the men stood at the entrance.


EMERALD Little tip. Keep your hands where the room can see them. Look at him but don’t maintain eye contact for too long. When you’re not talking, which should be most of the time, roll your tongue like this.

Emerald sticks her tongue out and rolls it.

EMERALD And place it against the roof of your mouth. It’ll give you something to focus on. If he asks for anything you’ve not rehearsed, make a conscious effort to move your eyes to the left. You’ll do it naturally when remembering details.

MARSHALL Even if they are made up.

EMERALD Exactly. If you claim you can’t remember something more than twice, everyone in the room will get nervous. Including you.

MARSHALL Hence the travelogue.

EMERALD He’s a unique individual. And ruthless.

Emerald looks out the window.

EMERALD We’re almost here. I’ll leave first by the far exit. My pick up is over the other side of the station. Wait for  thirty seconds, then gather your things and leave. Oh, and Marshall.

MARSHALL Yes Emerald?

EMERALD If he grins or licks his teeth. Get out any way you can.

MARSHALL Bear that in mind. Thanks.

EMERALD Best of luck.

MARSHALL Won’t need it. See you in eight months.

EMERALD I hope so.

Zeno’s Paradox And Other Problems

A kitchen.

Kevin is sat rigid in a chair. He stares at a large glass of water on the table before him.

Seb enters and puts the kettle on. He fetches a mug.

SEB Want a drink?

KEVIN I’m so thirsty.

Seb turns.

SEB Hah?

KEVIN I am so thirsty.

Seb observes the scene.

SEB There’s a glass of water directly in front of you.

Kevin whimpers.

SEB Are you okay? Kev?

KEVIN I can’t move.

SEB Are you. What have you hurt yourself? What’s wrong?


SEB Did you pull a hernia?

KEVIN I didn’t pull a hernia.

SEB So what is it? What’s wrong?

KEVIN I can’t move.

SEB Do you need me to call someone, or.

KEVIN I’m fine. I’m not hurt.

SEB So. What’s up?

KEVIN I’m so thirsty and I can’t move.

SEB If you’re thirsty just drink the water. Are you sure you’re okay? Dude.

KEVIN If I drink the water I’ll have to reach out and take it.

SEB Yeah that’s usually. How it works.

KEVIN So I’ll have to move my arm over to the glass on the table.

SEB Are you high?

KEVIN To move it all the way over there I’ll first have to move it half way there.


KEVIN Right?

SEB Well yeah. That’s.

KEVIN Okay. Now. To move it half way there I’ll have to first move it half way to half way there.

SEB I. I’m sorry. Kev I have no idea what.

KEVIN I’ll first have to arrive at a point that’s half way between where my hand rests now and where it’ll be half way towards the glass. Is there something that isn’t clear about that?

SEB No. I mean technically it all makes.

KEVIN Good. Thank you. But to move it a quarter of the way there, I’ll first have to move it half of that distance.

SEB Oh Jesus.

KEVIN An eighth of the way there.

SEB Is this some kind of joke? Are trying to waste my time for some reason?

KEVIN And before that I’ll have to move it a sixteenth of the way there and before that a thirty-second and before that a sixty-forth.

SEB Look at me. What the hell are you talking about?

KEVIN And on and on and on into infinity. There are infinity points in space I’ll have to hit in between here and that glass of water. And infinity movements I’ll have to make to hit those points.

SEB O. Kay.

KEVIN Don’t you see?

SEB See what?

KEVIN How the hell am I supposed to make infinity movements?! That’s impossible! It’ll take an infinite amount of time!

SEB No it takes like two seconds.


SEB Okay okay. Just. Chill out. Fuck.

KEVIN No human being can ever perform infinity movements no matter how small, or hit infinity points in space no matter how close together. Because it’s infinite. That’s the point. It’ll go on forever.

SEB I think there may be some holes in your logic.

KEVIN And I don’t want to spend eternity reaching for a glass of water.

SEB No one does. But that’s not what’ll happen.

KEVIN I’ve just proved that it will Seb. With science!

SEB Well how about I bring the water over to you.

Seb reaches for the glass of water.

KEVIN DON’T TOUCH IT! DO NOT TOUCH IT! This is my problem, understand? It’s my problem.

Seb backs away.


SEB Just pick up the glass, man. It’s just a glass. 

Seb notices that Kevin is crying.

SEB Are you okay? Hey is everything. Are you.


Seb sits down at the table. He looks at the glass of water.

SEB Do you want to tell me what’s up?

KEVIN I looked at the snowflakes today.

SEB The snowflakes?

KEVIN Uh huh.

SEB It’s not snowing.

KEVIN No the snowflakes. The big. The giant ones.

SEB The giant snowflakes.

KEVIN Some guy. Some scientist. Took pictures of these snowflakes. But they’re like really close up. Like 50 times. 100 times magnified or something. So they look.

SEB Giant. Right. Giant snowflakes. So, what. They look cool? I bet they look cool.

Kevin cries again.

KEVIN It’s scary Seb.

SEB Scary?

KEVIN It’s terrifying.

SEB Why. What’s. What’s so scary about the snowflakes?

KEVIN There’s. Temples.

SEB Temples? On snowflakes.

KEVIN Aquaducts. Gorges. Laylines. Frescoes. Arches. Ridges. Tessellation. Patterns. Beautiful intricate patterns. Pillars. Promontories. Fucking cities on these. Tiny cities on these miniscule little.

SEB Wow.

KEVIN And they say it’s nature? Fucking nature?!

SEB It is nature man. It’s a beautiful thing.

KEVIN Some of them have stars on them. Like the way people draw them. With the five.

SEB Five points yeah.

KEVIN Yeah with the five points all evenly spaced.

SEB That’s pretty cool.

KEVIN How the fuck would nature know how human beings draw stars Sebastian? How could nature possibly know that?

SEB Okay. I get it. And that’s made you scared of snowflakes.

KEVIN And the way they’re built. They’re structured so they can like. Take their own weight. And not collapse in on themselves. But then they just drop anyway. Just fall and.


KEVIN I just wanna know. Who makes them? Who or what is engineering these snowflakes that are so specifically designed and so exquisitely executed. And every single one completely unique. And then letting them just fall to the ground and disappear. Completely unnoticed. By anyone.

SEB Yeah I don’t. I don’t know.

KEVIN Because there is a hand at work. And that hand is witty and intelligent. And has an eye for beauty. And is a master of every science and art. To be able to create these little. But it’s a hand that’s hell bent on futility. And destruction. Creating a perfect little system then. Throwing it down into chaos.


SEB Well. Maybe it’s a message.

KEVIN What kind of message?

SEB Like one of those enjoy the ride kinds of message. Like you fall. And you die. And the whole time you’re not really in control of anything. But when you’re falling. It’s fun, and you get to see some awesome things along the way. And also you’re this crazily constructed perfect ecosystem with some incredible design touches. It won’t last forever, and maybe no one’ll notice. But that’s what you are whilst you exist. That’s a pretty fucking sweet thing to be.

KEVIN You think. You think that’s what the hand is saying?

SEB It’s like the glass of water. You spend your entire existence reaching for a single glass of water. That’s all you’ll ever do, because it takes infinity to do it. And maybe you won’t even make it. But if you can be cool with that. And just, you know, enjoy reaching for the water whilst it’s going on. Then it’s not all so bad.

KEVIN I. I never. No that’s a good. I suppose it kind of.

SEB Why don’t you go grab the water Kev? Then maybe we can go outside for a while. Get some fresh air. Here I’ll even help you.

Seb moves the glass to the edge of the table.

SEB There, I just saved you half an eternity.


SEB Why don’t you grab the glass Kev? Have a drink. Then we’ll go outside.

Beat. Kevin his breathing heavily.

SEB Have a drink Kev.

KEVIN nods. He takes a deep breath.

Mother (Third Variation)

She holds my face tight, pushing my cheeks in like this.

He pushes his cheeks in.

‘Look at that face’, she says. Obviously I can only see hers. She is pretty, if the light’s right. But this feels really quite weird. I don’t know if it’s because I’m leaving or because she’s a bit pissed, but she’s really making things quite uncomfortable.

Then she says ‘don’t waste it’.

He shrugs.

‘Waste what?’ She holds my face tighter, ‘what you’ve got, right here’. I’m lost. I just kind of raise one eyebrow and try to smile, but I can’t because of the.

He squeezes his cheeks.

Her eyes are glistening, just along the rim, and then she says, ‘if I had it back, I’d probably just waste it all over again.’

And I say.

I say.

Nothing. I don’t say anything. I want to, but I can’t. Then she lets me go.

But just because I never said it doesn’t mean she didn’t know. She knew I loved her. She must’ve known.

Because I did. I loved her.

And she knew that, even though. Even though I never said it.